Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
And it became all the more essential that I should be able to explore in
the drawing-room of Mme. de Guermantes, among her friends, the mystery
of her name, since I did not find it in her person when I saw her leave
the house in the morning on foot, or in the afternoon in her carriage.
Once before, indeed, in the church at Combray, she had appeared to me in
the blinding flash of a transfiguration, with cheeks irreducible to,
impenetrable by the colour of the name Guermantes and of afternoons on
the banks of the Vivonne, taking the place of my shattered dream like a
swan or willow into which has been changed a god or nymph, and which
henceforward, subjected to natural laws, will glide over the water or be
shaken by the wind. And yet, when that radiance had vanished, hardly had
I lost sight of it before it formed itself again, like the green and
rosy afterglow of sunset after the sweep of the oar that has broken it,
and in the solitude of my thoughts the name had quickly appropriated to
itself my impression of the face. But now, frequently, I saw her at her
window, in the courtyard, in the street, and for myself at least if I
did not succeed in integrating in her the name Guermantes, I cast the
blame on the impotence of my mind to accomplish the whole act that I
demanded of it; but she, our neighbour, she seemed to make the same
error, nay more to make it without discomfiture, without any of my
scruples, without even suspecting that it was an error. Thus Mme. de
Guermantes shewed in her dresses the same anxiety to follow the fashions
as if, believing herself to have become simply a woman like all the
rest, she had aspired to that elegance in her attire in which other
ordinary women might equal and perhaps surpass her; I had seen her in
the street gaze admiringly at a well-dressed actress; and in the
morning, before she sallied forth on foot, as if the opinion of the
passers-by, whose vulgarity she accentuated by parading familiarly
through their midst her inaccessible life, could be a tribunal competent
to judge her, I would see her before the glass playing, with a
conviction free from all pretence or irony, with passion, with
ill-humour, with conceit, like a queen who has consented to appear as a
servant-girl in theatricals at court, this part, so unworthy of her, of
a fashionable woman; and in this mythological oblivion of her natural
grandeur, she looked to see whether her veil was hanging properly,
smoothed her cuffs, straightened her cloak, as the celestial swan
performs all the movements natural to his animal species, keeps his eyes
painted on either side of his beak without putting into them any glint
of life, and darts suddenly after a bud or an umbrella, as a swan would,
without remembering that he is a god. But as the traveller, disappointed
by the first appearance of a strange town, reminds himself that he will
doubtless succeed in penetrating its charm if he visits its museums and
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