Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
heard the Prince of Saxony (or his double) say with a smile: “I don’t
know the number; it was my cousin who told me I had only to ask for her
box.”
He may well have been the Prince of Saxony; it was perhaps of the
Duchesse de Guermantes (whom, in that event, I should be able to watch
in the process of living one of those moments of her unimaginable life
in her cousin’s box) that his eyes formed a mental picture when he
referred to “my cousin who told me I had only to ask for her box,” so
much so that that smiling gaze peculiar to himself, those so simple
words caressed my heart (far more gently than would any abstract
meditation) with the alternative feelers of a possible happiness and a
vague distinction. Whatever he was, in uttering this sentence to the
attendant he grafted upon a commonplace evening in my everyday life a
potential outlet into a new world; the passage to which he was directed
after mentioning the word “box” and along which he now proceeded was
moist and mildewed and seemed to lead to subaqueous grottoes, to the
mythical kingdom of the water-nymphs. I had before me a gentleman in
evening dress who was walking away from me, but I kept playing upon and
round him, as with a badly fitting reflector on a lamp, and without ever
succeeding in making it actually coincide with him, the idea that he was
the Prince of Saxony and was on his way to join the Duchesse de
Guermantes. And, for all that he was alone, that idea, external to
himself, impalpable, immense, unstable as the shadow projected by a
magic lantern, seemed to precede and guide him like that deity,
invisible to the rest of mankind, who stands beside the Greek warrior in
the hour of battle.
I took my seat, striving all the time to recapture a line from _Phèdre_
which I could not quite remember. In the form in which I repeated it to
myself it had not the right number of feet, but as I made no attempt to
count them, between its unwieldiness and a classical line of poetry it
seemed as though no common measure could exist. It would not have
surprised me to learn that I must subtract at least half a dozen
syllables from that portentous phrase to reduce it to alexandrine
dimensions. But suddenly I remembered it, the irremediable asperities of
an inhuman world vanished as if by magic; the syllables of the line at
once filled up the requisite measure, what there was in excess floated
off with the ease, the dexterity of a bubble of air that rises to burst
on the water’s brink. And, after all, this excrescence with which I had
been struggling consisted of but a single foot.
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