Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
the blare of a regimental band which passed every day beneath my
windows. But on several occasions—and I mention these because one cannot
properly describe human life unless one shews it soaked in the sleep in
which it plunges, which, night after night, sweeps round it as a
promontory is encircled by the sea—the intervening layer of sleep was
strong enough to bear the shock of the music and I heard nothing. On the
other mornings it gave way for a moment; but, still velvety with the
refreshment of having slept, my consciousness (like those organs by
which, after a local anaesthetic, a cauterisation, not perceived at
first, is felt only at the very end and then as a faint burning smart)
was touched only gently by the shrill points of the fifes which caressed
it with a vague, cool, matutinal warbling; and after this brief
interruption in which the silence had turned to music it relapsed into
my slumber before even the dragoons had finished passing, depriving me
of the latest opening buds of the sparkling clangorous nosegay. And the
zone of my consciousness which its springing stems had brushed was so
narrow, so circumscribed with sleep that later on, when Saint-Loup asked
me whether I had heard the band, I was no longer certain that the sound
of its brasses had not been as imaginary as that which I heard during
the day echo, after the slightest noise, from the paved streets of the
town. Perhaps I had heard it only in a dream, prompted by my fear of
being awakened, or else of not being awakened and so not seeing the
regiment march past. For often, when I was still asleep at the moment
when, on the contrary, I had supposed that the noise would awaken me,
for the next hour I imagined that I was awake, while still drowsing, and
I enacted to myself with tenuous shadow-shapes on the screen of my
slumber the various scenes of which it deprived me but at which I had
the illusion of looking on.
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