Autobiographical fiction; France -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
What one has meant to do during the day, as it turns out, sleep
intervening, one accomplishes only in one’s dreams, that is to say after
it has been distorted by sleep into following another line than one
would have chosen when awake. The same story branches off and has a
different ending. When all is said, the world in which we live when we
are asleep is so different that people who have difficulty in going to
sleep seek first of all to escape from the waking world. After having
desperately, for hours on end, with shut eyes, revolved in their minds
thoughts similar to those which they would have had with their eyes
open, they take heart again on noticing that the last minute has been
crawling under the weight of an argument in formal contradiction of the
laws of thought, and their realisation of this, and the brief “absence”
to which it points, indicate that the door is now open through which
they will perhaps be able, presently, to escape from the perception of
the real, to advance to a resting-place more or less remote on the other
side, which will mean their having a more or less “good” night. But
already a great stride has been made when we turn our back on the real,
when we reach the cave in which “auto-suggestions” prepare—like
witches—the hell-broth of imaginary maladies or of the recurrence of
nervous disorders, and watch for the hour at which the storm that has
been gathering during our unconscious sleep will break with sufficient
force to make sleep cease.
Not far thence is the secret garden in which grow like strange flowers
the kinds of sleep, so different one from another, the sleep induced by
datura, by the multiple extracts of ether, the sleep of belladonna, of
opium, of valerian, flowers whose petals remain shut until the day when
the predestined visitor shall come and, touching them, bid them open,
and for long hours inhale the aroma of their peculiar dreams into a
marvelling and bewildered being. At the end of the garden stands the
convent with open windows through which we hear voices repeating the
lessons learned before we went to sleep, which we shall know only at the
moment of awakening; while, a presage of that moment, sounds the
resonant tick of that inward alarum which our preoccupation has so
effectively regulated that when our housekeeper comes in with the
warning: “It is seven o’clock,” she will find us awake and ready. On the
dim walls of that chamber which opens upon our dreams, within which
toils without ceasing that oblivion of the sorrows of love whose task,
interrupted and brought to nought at times by a nightmare big with
reminiscence, is ever speedily resumed, hang, even after we are awake,
the memories of our dreams, but so overshadowed that often we catch
sight of them for the first time only in the broad light of the
afternoon when the ray of a similar idea happens by chance to strike
them; some of them brilliant and harmonious while we slept, but already
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