Harry Baggs stopped; he had never before seen such a concretely
desirable place; it filled him with a longing, sharp like pain. Beyond
the hedge lay a different world from this; he could not even guess its
wide possession of ease, of knowledge, of facility for song. A voice
laughed, gay and untroubled as a bird's note. He wanted to stay, seated
obscurely on the bank, saturate himself with the still beauty; but the
thought of French Janin waiting for the relief of his drug drove him on.
The maple trees that lined the quiet streets of the town were in full
early leaf. Groups paced tranquilly over the brick ways; the houses
stood in secure rows. A longing for safety, recognition, choked at Harry
Baggs' throat. He wanted to stop at the corner, talk, move home to a
shadowy cool porch. He hurried in his ragged clothes past the pools of
light at the street crossings into the kinder gloom. At that moment he
would have surrendered his voice for a place in the communal peace about
him.
He reached the post-office and asked for a package addressed to
Janin. The clerk delayed, regarded him with suspicion, but in the end
surrendered a small precisely wrapped box. As he returned his mood
changed; all he asked, he muttered bitterly, was a fair trial for
his voice. He recognized obscurely that a singer's existence must be
different from the constricted life of a country town; here were no
stage, no audience, for the great harmonies he had imagined himself
producing. He had that in his heart which would make mere security,
content, forever impossible.
In the dilapidated camp French Janin eagerly clutched the box. He almost
filled his palm with the crystalline powder and gulped it hastily. Its
effect was produced slowly.... Janin waited rigidly for the release of
the drug.
The evening following, under the fence on the hill, the blind man dozed
while Harry Baggs exercised his voice.
“Good!” the former pronounced unexpectedly. “I know; heard all the great
voices for twenty years; a violin in the Opera Comique. Once I led the
finale of Hamlet. I saw the Director stop.... He handed me the baton.
He died soon after, and that was the beginning of my bad luck. I should
have been Director; but I was ignored, and came to America--Buenos
Aires; then Washington, and--and morphia.”
There was a long silence and then he spoke again with a new energy:
“I'm done, but you haven't started. You're bigger than ever I was;
you'll go on and on. I, Janin, will train you; when you sing the great
roles I'll sit in a box, wear diamond studs. Afterward, as we roll in a
carriage down the Grandes Boulevards, the people in front of the cafés
will applaud; the voice is appreciated in Paris.”
“I have a lot to learn first,” Baggs put in practically.
The old man recovered his violin. “Ah!” He drew the note tenuous but
correct from the uncertain strings. “Ah!” Harry Baggs vociferated to the
inattentive frogs, busy with their own chorus.
VI
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