Some people called him a little man, but in his size as in other things
he seemed rather to be of another species than a diminutive example of
our own. He was smaller than a man, but not unpleasantly small, neither
were his hands too long and delicate, nor were they incapable of a
man’s work. In every way he was finely made and graceful, with clear
large features, curled dark-brown hair and beard almost auburn. His
clothes were part of him, of a lighter brown than his hair and of some
substance which was more like a natural fur than a made cloth. These
clothes, along with his voice, which was very deep, his hair, and his
silent movements, increased his pleasing inhumanity. He sat among many
people and said trivial things, or more often nothing, looking very far
away and very little, turning all light somehow to moonlight, his dark
eyes full of subdued gleaming; and both speech and silence drew upon
him an attention which gave the casual observer an excuse for calling
him vain. Children liked him, though he never troubled to show a liking
for children, and while we sat on his lap or displayed a book for him
he would be talking busily to others, but without offending us. He did
not often tell us tales or play games with us, but he had a swift,
gentle way of putting his hand on our heads and looking at us which
always seemed an honour.
I recall chiefly, in connection with Aurelius, an evening near the end
of winter at the great house. There had been a week of frost, some
days silent and misty, others loud and clear with a north-east wind.
Then came the west wind, a day’s balmy sun, and at last rain. This
day I recall was the next. It was full of goings to and fro of loose
cloud, of yellow threatenings on the hills. The light was thin and
pale, falling tenderly over green fields and their fresh sprinkling
of mole-heaps. But the rain would not descend, and as we got to the
big house for tea the sky cleared, and in the twilight blackbirds
were chinking nervously before sleep and now and then hurrying across
the dim grass between the dark hedges and copses. A robin sang at
the edge of a holly, and a thrush somewhere remote, and the world
had become narrow and homely, the birds sounded secure like happily
tired boys lazily undressing, and evidently they did not expect men.
Three-quarters of a moon hung at the zenith, cold and fresh and
white like an early spring flower. We grew silent, but at tea were
particularly noisy and excited, too excited and near to tears, when
I rushed upstairs. In the library I found Aurelius reading, with his
back to the uncurtained window, by a light that only illuminated his
face and page. Running at first to the window, I pressed my face on
the pane to see the profound of deepening night, and the lake shining
dimly like a window through which the things under the earth might
be seen if you were out. The abyss of solitude below and around was
swallowing the little white moon and might swallow me also; with terror
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