To-night there came to her with amazing clearness the vision of a
garden, ill-cared for, deserted, but oh! how beautiful, stretching
behind a Savoy inn in the mountainous country about Pol les Thermes.
There she and Downing, drawn--driven--to one another by a trembling,
irresistible impulse, had kissed for the first time, and for a moment,
then as now, she had lain in his arms, looking up at him with piteous,
questioning eyes. How long ago that morning seemed, and yet how few had
been the kisses in between!
Suddenly she felt him loosen his grip of her shoulders; and he held her
away from himself, at arms' length, as deliberately, in the tone of one
who has a right to an answer, he asked her a certain question regarding
herself and Melancthon Robinson.
She was pained and startled, reluctant to tell that which she had always
kept secret, and which she believed--so little are we aware that most
things concerning us are known to all our world--had never been
suspected. But she admitted his right to question her, and found time to
whisper to her secret self, 'My answer must surely make him glad'; and
so, her eyes lowering before his piercing, insistent gaze, she told him
the truth.
But, as he heard her, Downing relaxed his hold on her, and with
something like a groan he said: 'Why did I not know this before? Why
should I have had to wait till now to learn such a thing from you?' And
as she, surprised and distressed, hesitated, not knowing what to say, he
to her amazement turned away, and in a preoccupied tone, even with a
smile, said suddenly: 'Go. Go now, my dear. It is too late for you to be
down here. I have work to finish to-night.' Then he opened the door,
and, with no further word or gesture of affection, shut her out in what
seemed for the moment utter darkness.
But as she slowly began groping her way up the steps, sick at heart,
bewildered by the strangeness, by the coldness, of his manner, the door
of the Beach Room again opened, and she heard him calling her back with
a hoarse, eager cry.
She hesitated, then turned to see his tall, lean figure filling up the
doorway, and outlined for a moment against the bright lamplit room,
before he strode across the sand to where she stood, trembling.
Once more he took her in his arms, once more he murmured the words of
broken, passionate endearment for which her heart had hungered, only,
however, at last again to say, but no longer with a smile: 'Go. Go now,
my beloved--for I am only a man after all--only a man as other men are.'
Then for some days Penelope had found him again become strangely cold
and alien. She had felt the situation between them intolerable, and
suddenly she had suggested the sojourn at Kingpole Farm. And on the eve
of his departure Downing again seemed to become instinct with the
mysterious ardour he had shown from the first moment they had met, from
the flash of time during which their eyes had exchanged their first
long, intimate, probing look.
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