"You love too hard, my dear woman," Alice Valentine remonstrated
affectionately; "nothing is worse than extremes in anything. Say to
yourself, like a sensible girl, that you have a good husband, and let
it go at that! Be as cool and cheerful with Warren as if he
were--George, for instance, and try to interest yourself in something
entirely outside your own home. I wonder if perhaps this place isn't a
little lonely for you? Why don't you try Bar Harbor or one of the
mountain places next year, and go about among people, and entertain a
little more?"
"But, Alice, people BORE me so--I've had so much of it, and it's always
the same thing!"
"I know; I hate it, too. But there are funny phases in marriage,
Rachael, and one has to take them as they come. Warren might like it."
Rachael pondered. Elinor Pomeroy and the Villalongas, the Whittakers
and Stokes and Parmalees again! Noise and hurry, and dancing and
smoking and drinking again! She sighed.
"I believe I'll suggest it to Warren, Alice. Then if he's keen for it,
we'll do it next year."
"I would." Mrs. Valentine rose, and looked toward the beach with an
idea of locating Martha and Katrina before sending for them. "Isn't it
almost lunch time?" she asked, adding in a matter-of-fact tone: "Don't
worry any more, Rachael; it's largely a bad habit. Just look the whole
thing in the face, and map it out like a campaign. 'The way to begin
living the ideal life is to begin,' my father used to say!"
This talk, and others like it, had the effect of bracing Rachael to
fresh endurance and of spurring her to fresh courage for the few days
that its effect lasted. But sooner or later her bravery would die away,
and an increasing discouragement possess her. Lying in her bare, airy
bedroom at night, with sombre eyes staring at the arch of stars above
the moving sea, an almost unbearable loneliness would fall upon soul
and body; she needed Warren, she said to herself, often with bitter
tears. Warren, splashing in his bath, scattering wet towels and
discarded garments so royally about the place; Warren, in a discursive
mood, regarding some operation as he stropped his razor; Warren's old,
half-unthinking "you look sweet, dear," when, fresh and dainty, his
wife was ready to go downstairs--for these and a thousand other
memories of him she yearned with an aching desire that racked her like
a bodily pain.
"Oh, it isn't right for him to torture me so!" she would whisper to
herself. "It isn't right!"
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