French essays -- Translations into English; World War, 1914-1918 -- Influence
To be sure, a few of these men are frank, level in temperament, as
plain to the eye as a smooth pebble on the beach; one touches them,
holds them, grasps them in a moment like a big piece of silver in the
hollow of the hand. But so many others are changeable, furtive, so many
others are rough like ore in which only the fissures glisten and betray
the inner nobility.
The more unresponsive and secretive they seem, without any obvious
beauty, the more resolved I find I am to look upon them as a treasure,
to search through them as if they were a soil that is full of wealth.
There are some of them that I love, there are some whom I think that I
do not love. What does it matter! The interest I devote to them is not
in the least dependent on the throbs of my heart. That one who never
speaks and conceals, under his obstinate forehead, two little eyes
of green glass,--certainly he does not naturally arouse my affection.
Nevertheless, how different is the attention with which I regard him
from the curiosity of a scientist watching the stirrings of fish in an
aquarium! It makes me think, that attention, rather of the dizzy joy of
the miser who weighs a gold-piece, the effigy on which doesn’t please
him. Gold, nevertheless!
True! How could I feel bored with these faces turned toward me, with
this choir of human voices singing, each in its own familiar key, yet
blending into the masculine clamor of an orchestra?
Everything they say is precious; less so, however, than what they keep
to themselves. The reasons they give for their actions astonish me
at times; those they do not confess, especially those of which they
themselves are ignorant, always fill me with passionate interest. A
word, fallen from their lips like a piece of paper from an unknown
pocket, arrests me and sets me dreaming for long days. About them
I build up daring and yet fragile hypotheses which they either
obligingly support or destroy with a careless gesture. I always begin
again, delighting in it; it is my recreation. I enjoy finding that my
hypotheses are right, for that satisfies my pride; I enjoy finding I am
wrong, for that reveals to me leafy depths in my park that are still
unexplored.
And then I know that only a small part of their nature is involved
in our intercourse. The rest branches off, ramifies out into the
perspectives of the world. I think of it as of that side of the moon
which men will never see. I reconstruct with a pious, a burning
patience that life of theirs which is outside this, their true life,
endlessly complicated, linked by a thousand tentacles with a thousand
other unknown lives. So must Cuvier’s mind have wandered as he turned
and returned a fossil tooth, the only vestige of some vast, unknown
organism.
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