Opposite the alley he stopped and made as if he would cross the street,
but the impulse seemed to expend itself in the moment of hesitation,
and he went on again, slowly, as one to whom dubiety has lent its
leaden-soled shoes. Reaching his room he lighted the gas and dropped
into a chair, his hands deep-buried in his pockets, and a look of
something like desperation in his eyes.
The suggestive outline of his Western experience sketched between the
acts of the opera for the young woman with the reassuring smile was
made up of half-truths, as such confidences are wont to be. It was true
that he had come to Colorado to seek his fortune, and that thus far
the quest had been bootless. But it was also true that he had begun by
persuading himself that he must first study his environment; and that
the curriculum which he had chosen was comprehensive, exhaustive, and
costly enough to speedily absorb the few thousand dollars which were to
have been his lure for success.
His walk in life hitherto had been decently irreproachable, hedged in
on either hand by such good habits as may be formed by the attrition
of a moral community; but since these were more the attributes of time
and place than of the man, and were unconsciously left behind in the
leave-takings, a species of insanity, known only to those who have
habitually worn the harness of self-restraint, had come upon him in the
new environment. At first it had been but a vagrant impulse, and as
such he had suffered it to put a bandage on the eyes of reason. Later,
when he would fain have removed the bandage, he found it tied in a hard
knot.
For the hundredth time within a month he was once more tugging at the
knot. To give himself the benefit of an object-lesson, he turned his
pockets inside out, throwing together a small heap of loose silver and
crumpled bank-notes on the table. After which he made a deliberate
accounting, smoothing the creases out of the bills, and building an
accurate little pillar with the coins. The exact sum ascertained, he
sat back and regarded the money reflectively.
"Ninety-five dollars and forty-five cents. That's what there is left
out of the nest-egg; and I've been here rather less than four months.
At that rate I've averaged, let me see"--he knitted his brows and made
an approximate calculation--"say, fifty dollars a day. Consequently,
the mill will run out of grist in less than two days, or it would if
the law of averages held good--which it doesn't, in this case. Taking
the last fortnight as a basis, I'm capitalized for just about one hour
longer."
He looked at his watch and got up wearily. "It's Kismet," he mused.
"I might as well take my hour now, and be done with it." Whereupon he
rolled the money into a compact little bundle, turned off the gas, and
felt his way down the dark stair to the street.
At the corner he ran against a stalwart young fellow, gloved and
overcoated, and carrying a valise.
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