“It’s all so unimportant,” said Lucian, and he really thought so. He
had sweeter things to dream of, and desired no communion of feeling
with that madman who had left Caermaen some few hours before. He felt
he had made a fool of himself, he was ashamed to think of the fatuity
of which he had been guilty, such boiling hatred was not only wicked,
but absurd. A man could do no good who put himself into a position of
such violent antagonism against his fellow-creatures; so Lucian rebuked
his heart, saying that he was old enough to know better. But he
remembered that he had sweeter things to dream of; there was a secret
ecstasy that he treasured and locked tight away, as a joy too exquisite
even for thought till he was quite alone; and then there was that
scheme for a new book that he had laid down hopelessly some time ago;
it seemed to have arisen into life again within the last hour; he
understood that he had started on a false tack, he had taken the wrong
aspect of his idea. Of course the thing couldn’t be written in that
way; it was like trying to read a page turned upside down; and he saw
those characters he had vainly sought suddenly disambushed, and a
splendid inevitable sequence of events unrolled before him.
It was a true resurrection; the dry plot he had constructed revealed
itself as a living thing, stirring and mysterious, and warm as life
itself. The parson was smoking stolidly to all appearance, but in
reality he was full of amazement at his own son, and now and again he
slipped sly furtive glances towards the tranquil young man in the
arm-chair by the empty hearth. In the first place, Mr. Taylor was
genuinely impressed by what he had read of Lucian’s work; he had so
long been accustomed to look upon all effort as futile that success
amazed him. In the abstract, of course, he was prepared to admit that
some people did write well and got published and made money, just as
other persons successfully backed an outsider at heavy odds; but it had
seemed as improbable that Lucian should show even the beginnings of
achievement in one direction as in the other. Then the boy evidently
cared so little about it; he did not appear to be proud of being worth
robbing, nor was he angry with the robbers.
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