But our readers need not hear the whole story of Margaret's fragmentary
education. She was now between seventeen and eighteen, and had managed
to pick up a wonderful amount of information; but culture she had none.
This she soon began to feel, but as the companion of a woman cultivated
to the last degree, and with her own brilliant powers, she glided,
without difficulty, into regions most girls in her position would have
had to reach through laborious toil. And as to art, Mrs. Grey had only
to provide her with materials, and give her opportunity to experiment,
and the next thing she knew, grace and beauty dropped like magic
from the tiny point of her pencil. But so many other gifts developed
themselves, that there was no danger of one-sidedness.
So she dashed on, eager, breathless, like one running a race; entering
into everything with zest and enjoyment, and undertaking work enough to
exhaust a less dauntless nature. And then another cloud began to arise.
Christmas was coming, and with it twelve human beings to criticise,
misunderstand, dislike her.
Twelve human beings for her to criticise, be jealous of, and, as like
as not, hate. At least that was the way she chose to put it, but this
is Mrs. Grey's version:
"They'll all come, this year; my darling boys and girls, and their
little folks. Will they find it somewhat awkward, before they get
acquainted with Margaret? It will be trying for her, poor child, to see
a mother and children together."
However, she had tact--the kind of tact that comes from Christian
instincts. She talked to Margaret about the home-comers, exactly as if
they were her brothers and sisters, got her interested, asked her to
manage a Christmas-tree, and consulted her about everything.
"Do the children have a tree every year?" asked Margaret.
"Oh, yes--every year."
"Then I should like to get up something different; I don't know what,
but I can think out a plan."
The next morning she came down as radiant as the sun.
"I have a plan," she announced, "and now I must have a carpenter."
The carpenter was forthcoming, the plan shown him; he had little
folks of his own, and entered into the fun of the thing, gleefully.
Christmas Eve arrived, and the house was full. As lively greetings
were exchanged, Margaret began to shrink into herself, and to wish she
could hide in some cranny till all was over. Is this natural? Is this
picture true to life? It is. _Reality_ never tries to shine, to display
its plumage or clap its wings. It is Unreality that comes strutting
forward, crying, "Go to, and admire my gifts!"
The Christmas breakfast was a failure. In vain Mrs. Grey tried to
persuade herself that her children had taken Margaret into their
hearts, and loved her like a sister; in vain they reproached themselves
for not being able to do it; in vain Margaret tried to appear at her
ease with all those eyes upon her; a cold silence fell upon every sally
made by some bold adventurer, and all were thankful when the meal was
over.
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