Domestic fiction; Families -- Fiction; Sex role -- Fiction; Spouses -- Fiction
He sat down on the floor, holding the bear tightly in his arms, wave
after wave of relief washing over him in a warm relaxing flood. All his
life long, ever since he could remember, more than three years now,
he had gone to sleep with his big Teddy in his arms. The sight of the
faithful pointed face, like no other face, the friendly staring black
eyes, the familiar feel of the dear, woolly body close to him--they
were saturated with a thousand memories of peace, with a thousand
associations of drowsy comfort and escape from trouble. Days when he
had been punished and then shut, screaming furiously, into the bedroom
to “cry it out,” he had gone about blindly, feeling for Teddy through
his tears, and, exhausted by his shrieking and kicking and anger, had
often fallen asleep on the floor, Teddy in his arms, exercising that
mystic power of consolation. The groove in Stephen’s brain was worn
deep and true; Teddy meant quiet and rest and safety ... and Stephen
needed all he could get of those elements in his stormy little life,
made up, so much of it, of fierce struggles against forces stronger
than he.
The little boy sat on the floor of the quiet room, surrounded by the
quiet furniture, resting itself visibly, and hugged his recovered
treasure tightly to him, his round cheek pressed hard against the dingy
white wool of the stuffed muzzle. He _loved_ Teddy! He loved his Teddy!
He was lost in unfathomable peace to have found him again. All the
associations of tranquillity, the only tranquillity in Stephen’s life,
which had accumulated about Teddy, rose in impalpable clouds about the
child. What the smell of incense and the murmur of prayers are to the
believer, what the first whiffs of his pipe to the dog-tired woodsman,
what a green-shaded lamp over a quiet study table to the scholar, all
that and more was Teddy to Stephen. His energetic, pugnacious little
face grew dreamy, his eyes wide and gentle. For a moment not only had
Mother forgotten about him, but he had forgotten about Mother.
Was it only four days ago that this new bitter phase of Stephen’s
struggle for existence had come up? Mother had taken him to call on
a lady. They had walked and walked and walked, Stephen’s short legs
twinkling fast beside Mother’s long, strong stride, his arm almost
pulled out of the socket by the firm grasp on his mittened hand by
which she drew him along at her pace. He had been breathless when they
arrived, and filled with that ruffled, irritable, nervous fatigue which
walking with Mother always gave him. Then, after long and intolerably
dull conversation, during which Stephen had been obliged to “sit
still and don’t touch things,” the lady had showed them that hideous,
pitiable, tragic wreck, which she had said was a washed Teddy-bear.
“It suddenly occurred to me, Mrs. Knapp, that the amount of dirt and
microbes that creature had been accumulating for two years must be
beyond words. Molly drags it around on the floor, as like as not....”
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