A quick frown came to her hearer's face. "Teaching! Ay! but only enough
to make me fit for his skill to play with. I know that now. Well! let
him try it again--" Roshan's sudden fierceness died down to sombre
discontent--"but that is fool's talk. He is too old. I could not meet
him on equal terms." He drew himself up proudly; yet he felt a vague
regret at his own acquired sense of fair play. Below it lay a savagery
that could rejoice in revenge at any price, and Mumtâza Mahal, watching
him, thought him still more like his ancestors, and nodded approvingly.
"Think of it, at least, Roshan," she said, "and remember that it is not
as if the girl were a real _mem_. Pidar Narâyan, for all he is so
clever, was put to it to find a husband for the mother, the baptized
baby! He took a poor creature from Martin's school at Lucknow, at last,
who could not even speak English like a _Huzoor_--"
"Because he was Italian and a Catholic," put in Roshan, then shrugged
his shoulders impatiently. "But thou canst not understand. 'Tis
impossible! Dreams, grandmother, dreams!"
"Dreams come true even when forgotten, and torchbearers never see their
own way," retorted the old lady, ending the discussion with proverbial
wisdom as a clincher. "So think of it, since thoughts cost nothing, and
tell no tales."
Roshan felt as if they did the former at any rate, as he strode back
toward the fort, telling himself he would feel better when he had on
his uniform once more. This was his _metier_, not marriage. The best
soldiers, the really great soldiers--he paused, the knowledge that he
could never rise to real greatness coming to make him clinch his right
hand as if on his sword-hilt. The tempest of revolt which swept through
him left him dazed, for he had reasoned the matter out with himself
thoroughly, and thought he had accepted the situation, thought that he
had realized that his dignity in the regiment under the present system
went side by side, and not behind, that of the English officers. Yet
here he was at the mercy of something too strong for acquired wisdom.
He walked on faster to escape into a more wholesome environment, and by
sheer force of will succeeded in driving away all thought of the past
interview save a triviality. That was the remembrance that her name was
Laila, his Roshan. Light and Darkness, Day and Night. A fate indeed.
As he passed into the courtyard, however, on his way to the door in the
river bastion, a group in its centre, round the old gun, brought his
attention back to realities, and he went towards it, his slipper-shod
feet making no martial clank, this time, on the union-jack of raised
paths. The group consisted of half a dozen or so of men listening to
something which was being declaimed, with much gesticulation, by an
ash-smeared _jogi_, whose wide-pierced ears, distended by conch-shell
rings, and transverse bar of white on his forehead, showed him to
belong to the sect which claims to have transcendental powers.
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