The assumption, in his present state of mind, made all his fierce
temper flash to his face; but ere he could choose English words to
express it, she laughed, and, after her fashion when amused, became
confidential. "You are angry at being called a native; but you _are_
one, aren't you? Then it is so foolish. You are like my guardian. He
can't bear the bazaar people to call me '_Begum-sahiba_'; but they do
sometimes, you know, because I own a lot of their houses and lands, and
my grandmother was a native princess. I know that, though my guardian
never speaks about it. He is ashamed, I think--like you are. I'm not. I
didn't choose my grandmother. Why should one fuss about such things? If
they're true, it can't be helped, and if they're not, what _does_ it
matter? Besides, it must be rather nice to be a real Begum. You haven't
seen any, of course; they wouldn't let you, would they? That must be
horrid. How could you like people if you didn't see them? Besides--"
she added, with an access of demure, pious conviction, "it would be
wicked to marry them, you know. You should never marry anyone you don't
love. Even the Sisters told me that."
Her voice had deepened, broadened; her eyes, occupied with his uniform,
not his face, had grown soft. Hitherto he had been too much at a loss
before her sudden garrulity to interrupt; now, that vague suspicion
recurred, making him feel inclined to say brutally, "I am your cousin;
I claim you." The very thought of her outraged face attracted him. But
English words were inadequate for such emotions, so, as he paused, she
went on:--
"As you are here, I suppose you'll be asked to the ball, also. It is to
be in my palace, you know, because Captain Dering thinks it the best
place. He says the gardens will be beautiful all lit up--" She smiled as
if at some secret mystery, then continued: "Of course, I don't know
yet; I haven't seen it, but I think it will be lovely. Only I wish my
dress was different. I am Beatrice--Dante's Beatrice--and I think it
stupid. But my guardian chose it because--" she smiled again with the
same secret amusement--"I don't know, of course, but I expect it is
because my great-grandmother went as Beatrice to some ball long ago. It
is generally that. I think he must have been in love with her--isn't it
funny?"
"Laila," came Father Ninian's voice from behind, "I have been looking
for you everywhere. It is time to go."
His usually kind old face was stern. He gave the curtest of
recognitions to Roshan Khân, and, as he carried his ward off, said
sharply, "Who introduced you to that native?"
"No one," she replied, indifferently; "I thought he was Captain Dering;
their uniforms--" she broke off to add, with more animation, "I do like
the gold and silver lace. Though of course the jewels, like the rajahs
wore, look best."
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