New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Single women -- Fiction; Social classes -- Fiction
She felt a touch on her arm, and met the penitent eye of Miss
Kilroy. “Miss Bart, I guess you can sew those spangles on as well
as I can when you’re feeling right. Miss Haines didn’t act fair to
you.”
Lily’s colour rose at the unexpected advance: it was a long time
since real kindness had looked at her from any eyes but Gerty’s.
“Oh, thank you: I’m not particularly well, but Miss Haines was
right. I AM clumsy.”
“Well, it’s mean work for anybody with a headache.” Miss Kilroy
paused irresolutely. “You ought to go right home and lay down. Ever
try orangeine?”
“Thank you.” Lily held out her hand. “It’s very kind of you—I mean
to go home.”
She looked gratefully at Miss Kilroy, but neither knew what more
to say. Lily was aware that the other was on the point of offering
to go home with her, but she wanted to be alone and silent—even
kindness, the sort of kindness that Miss Kilroy could give, would
have jarred on her just then.
“Thank you,” she repeated as she turned away.
She struck westward through the dreary March twilight, toward
the street where her boarding-house stood. She had resolutely
refused Gerty’s offer of hospitality. Something of her mother’s
fierce shrinking from observation and sympathy was beginning to
develop in her, and the promiscuity of small quarters and close
intimacy seemed, on the whole, less endurable than the solitude of
a hall bedroom in a house where she could come and go unremarked
among other workers. For a while she had been sustained by this
desire for privacy and independence; but now, perhaps from
increasing physical weariness, the lassitude brought about by
hours of unwonted confinement, she was beginning to feel acutely
the ugliness and discomfort of her surroundings. The day’s task
done, she dreaded to return to her narrow room, with its blotched
wall-paper and shabby paint; and she hated every step of the walk
thither, through the degradation of a New York street in the last
stages of decline from fashion to commerce.
But what she dreaded most of all was having to pass the chemist’s
at the corner of Sixth Avenue. She had meant to take another
street: she had usually done so of late. But today her steps were
irresistibly drawn toward the flaring plate-glass corner; she tried
to take the lower crossing, but a laden dray crowded her back, and
she struck across the street obliquely, reaching the sidewalk just
opposite the chemist’s door.
Over the counter she caught the eye of the clerk who had waited
on her before, and slipped the prescription into his hand. There
could be no question about the prescription: it was a copy of one
of Mrs. Hatch’s, obligingly furnished by that lady’s chemist. Lily
was confident that the clerk would fill it without hesitation;
yet the nervous dread of a refusal, or even of an expression of
doubt, communicated itself to her restless hands as she affected to
examine the bottles of perfume stacked on the glass case before her.
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