The House on the Moor, v. 2/3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The House on the Moor, v. 2/3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction
Horace put up this letter with a smile. There was one thing in it which
should certainly have made the advice contained here palatable. The
Colonel, remembering himself that very likely his nephew was kept
without money, enclosed to him, with the merest statement that he did
so, a five-pound note--the sight of which did bring a momentary
pleasure, mingled with mortification, to the young man's face. But his
bitter, ungenerous pride, made the kindness an offence, while it was a
service. He never dreamed of rejecting it, but wiped off all necessity
for gratitude by feeling the present an affront. It was a strange
alchemy which Horace exercised; he made the most precious things into
dross, putting them into the fire of his contemptuous philosophy. "Was
it to please me my uncle did this, or was it to please himself?" he
said, with that smile in which no pleasure was: and so made it out,
instead of a natural act of kindness, to be a selfish piece of personal
gratification on the part of Colonel Sutherland, who very likely had
pleased himself mightily by this little exhibition of liberality and
apparent goodness, at Horace's expense. With this miserable ingenuity
Horace defended himself from all the influences of kindness, and stood
coldly and bitterly superior to the devices which he supposed himself to
have found out. Having thrust the note into his pocket with this
satisfactory clearance of everything like thanks from his own mind, he
turned to the letter itself, which was not at all agreeable to him. He
had no more idea of waiting for the decision of the anonymous individual
to whom his uncle had appealed, than he had of proceeding to Edinburgh,
and living under the eye and inspection of Colonel Sutherland. He had
unbounded confidence in himself, in his own abilities and skill in using
them; he was not disposed to wait upon anybody's pleasure, or to be
diverted from his own purpose, because some one else was labouring for
his benefit in another fashion. He smiled as he read his uncle's letter,
and thought upon his own scheme; but it never occurred to him to tell
the Colonel that his pains were unnecessary, that he himself saw another
way, and had resolved upon his own course. That was not Horace's way; he
preferred to know of these exertions being made for him, and secretly to
forestall, and make them useless, by acting for himself. Then it
appeared to him as if he should recover his natural superiority to his
uncle, and demonstrate triumphantly that he was not a person to be
insulted with favours and kindnesses, or from whom thanks and gratitude
were to be expected. With these sentiments he put up the letter in his
pocket, and looked with disdainful amusement at Susan, who was still in
the full delight of her excitement over hers; and went out, as was his
wont, to ripen his own plans in his mind, and, secure in the possession
of the Colonel's bank-note, to determine on his own independent
movements, and decide when he should leave home.
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