"Another danger," said Jack, "is, that we may all get tired of these
meetings. You see, they are not the real thing. Formerly, the evening
followed the day; it was the feast after the fight. Where is now the
fight? And all the dancing, courting, pretty speeches, and tender
looks, meant only the fore-words of Love in earnest. Now, are we ready
again for Love in earnest? Can the men once more worship the women upon
whom they have gazed so long unmoved? If so, we must brave the College
and face the consequences. I know of two people only who are at present
so much in earnest as to brave the College. They are Christine and
myself."
He took the girl's hand and kissed it.
"You may add one more, Jack," said Mildred. "If you go away with
Christine, take me with you; for the Present is more intolerable than
any possible Future."
"That makes three, then. There may be more. Geoffrey and Dorothy are
never tired of whispering and billing. Perhaps they, too, are strong
enough to throw off the old terrors and to join us. But we shall see."
"I think," said Mildred, "it might depend partly on how the case is put
before them. If you made them see very clearly the miseries of their
present life, and made them yearn ardently for the things which they
have only just remembered, some of them might follow, at all costs. But
for most the College and what it holds would prove too much."
"Yet you yourself--and Christine--"
"As for me, it seems as if I remember more than anybody because I think
of the sorrows of the Past. I cannot tell now how I ever came to forget
those sorrows. And they are now grown so dear to me, that for the very
fear of losing them again, I would give up the Gift of the College and
go with you. As for Christine, she has never known at all the dread
which they now pretend used to fill all our minds and poisoned all
our lives. How, then, should she hesitate? Besides, she loves you,
Jack--and that is enough."
"Quite enough," said Christine, smiling.
"If you remember everything," Jack went on, gravely, "you remember,
Mildred, that there was something in life besides play and society. In
a corner of your father's park, for instance, there was an old gray
building, with a small tower and a peal of bells. The place stood in
a square enclosure, in which were an old broken cross, an ancient
yew-tree, two or three head-stones, and the graves of buried villagers.
You remember that place, Mildred? You and I have often played in that
ground; on weekdays we have prowled about the old building and read the
monuments on the walls; on Sundays we used to sit there with all the
people. Do you remember?"
Mildred clasped her hands.
"How could I ever forget?" she cried. "How could any of us forget?"
"Because Grout robbed you of your memory, my cousin. He could not rob
mine."
"Alas!" she lamented, "how can we ever get that back again?"
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