Then she summoned up her courage again and smiled as she said to him:
'Work hard this year, so that when you come back again we may all be
quite happy and satisfied.'
'Oh! there's no good in working hard! Their examinations are nothing
but foolery. I didn't pass because I didn't care to. I am going to
hurry through with it all now, since my lack of fortune prevents me
from living a life of ease and leisure, which is the only satisfactory
life a man can lead.'
In the early part of October, after Louise had returned to Caen,
Pauline again resumed her lessons with her aunt. The curriculum of her
third year's studies embraced bowdlerised French History, and Greek
Mythology as 'adapted to the use of young persons.' But the girl, who
had shown such diligence in the previous year, now seemed to have
become quite sluggish and dull. Sometimes she even went to sleep over
her tasks, and her face flushed with a hot surging of blood. A mad
outburst of anger against Véronique, who didn't like her, she declared,
made her so ill that she had to stop in bed for a couple of days. Then
came changes in herself which disquieted and distressed her. About
Christmas-time Pauline's health was such as to alarm Madame Chanteau.
But that worthy woman, from ridiculous notions of her own, was largely
to blame, as she refused to take Doctor Cazenove's advice and talk
to the girl as she should have done. And in the result Pauline, at an
important period in her youth, narrowly escaped being stricken with an
attack of brain-fever.
When she was well again and resumed her studies, she began to affect
an enthusiastic interest in the Greek Mythology. She shut herself up
in Lazare's big room--which was still used as a schoolroom--and had to
be sent for at meal-times. When she came down, she seemed buried in
thought and quite indifferent to all that went on. Upstairs, however,
the Mythology lay quite neglected on the table, for it was in poring
over all the medical books which Lazare had left in the old wardrobe
that she now spent her time. There were a good many of those works,
and, though at first she failed to understand all the technical terms
she met with, she plodded on through anatomy and physiology, and even
pathology and clinical medicine. Thus she not only learnt--in all
simplicity and purity of mind, saved from all vicious thought by a
healthy craving for knowledge--many things of which girls of her age
are usually ignorant; but her researches extended to the symptoms and
treatment of all sorts of disease and ailment. Superfluous subjects she
passed by unheeded. She seemed to know intuitively what knowledge was
necessary to enable her to be of assistance to those who suffered. Her
heart melted with pity as she read on, and she gave herself up again to
her old dream of learning everything so that she might be able to cure
all that went amiss.
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