"It is too late," she said simply. "Forget!" There was an indignant
ring in her words. "Do you think that I could forget--or that, if I
could, I would? Do you think it is a thing that happens every day?"
From a tree at the fence line came the softly lamenting note of a
small owl, and across the fields floated the strident shriek of a
lumbering night freight.
To Saxon's ears, the inconsequential sounds came with a painful
distinctness. It was only his own voice that seemed to him muffled in
a confusion of roaring noises. His lips were so dry that he had to
moisten them with his tongue.
To hesitate, to temporize, even to soften his recital, would mean
another failure in the telling of it. He must plunge in after his old
method of directness, even brutality, without preface or palliation.
Here, at all events, brutality were best. If his story appalled and
repelled her, it would be the blow that would free her from the
thraldom of the love he had unfairly stolen. If she turned from him
with loathing, at least anger would hurt her less than heartbreak.
"Do you remember the story Ribero so graphically told of the
filibuster and assassin and the firing squad in the plaza?" As he
spoke, Saxon knew with a nauseating sense of certainty that his brain
had never really doubted his identity. He had futilely argued with
himself, but it was only his eagerness of wish that had kept clamoring
concerning the possibility of a favorable solution. All the while, his
reason had convicted him. Now, as he spoke, he felt sure, as sure as
though he could really remember, and he felt also his unworthiness to
speak to her, as though it were not Saxon, but Carter, who held her in
his arms. He suddenly stepped back and held her away at arms' length,
as though he, Saxon, were snatching her from the embrace of the other
man, Carter. Then, he heard her murmuring:
"Yes, of course I remember."
"And did you notice his look of astonishment when I came? Did you
catch the covert innuendoes as he talked--the fact that he talked at
me--that he was accusing me--my God! recognizing me?"
The girl put up her hands, and brushed the hair back from her
forehead. She shook her head as though to shake off some cloud of
bewilderment and awaken herself from the shock of a nightmare. She
stood so unsteadily that the man took her arm, and led her to the
bench against the wall. There, she sank down with her face in her
hands. It seemed a century, but, when she looked up again, her face,
despite its pallor in the moonlight, was the face of one seeking
excuses for one she loves, one trying to make the impossible jibe with
fact.
"I suppose you did not catch the full significance of that narrative.
No one did except the two of us--the unmasker and the unmasked. Later,
he studied a scar on my hand. It's too dark to see, but you can feel
it."
He caught her fingers in his own. They were icy in his hot clasp, as
he pressed them against his right palm.
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