We reached London in the fresh early daylight, which made us look all
the more fatigued and worn; and then they had a consultation what to do.
The decision at last was to postpone for an hour or two the visit to
Colin, that Mr. Campbell might get a little rest. I went with them to
the hotel. Charlotte said nothing, but she gave me an imploring look,
and her father’s weakness seemed to grow upon him every hour. He wanted
my arm to go upstairs. He looked for me, and called me to his side with
a little querulous movement. Perhaps, by some confusion in his mind, he
seemed to consider that he had somehow a right to my services. But,
though he felt his weakness, he would not suffer Charlotte to go to her
brother alone. “I am all right,” he said; “I am all right. It is because
I have not slept. You young people who sleep, that makes all the
difference.” He was in reality the only one of us who had slept at all.
Breakfast was prepared for us in one of those bare rooms in the great
new caravanserai for travellers which are so associated with fatigue and
vacancy, with hurried, painful recollections, and melancholy meetings
and partings. When I went into it, Charlotte was standing at the window.
She called me hastily as soon as I came in. She seized my arm when I
came up to her, and drew me close by the window. “Look! was that she?”
she cried wildly. “Look! look! or she will be gone.” She pointed to the
street below, which was alive with a constant succession of passers-by.
To make out one from another was difficult enough. They moved and
recrossed in front of us, a stream of men and women, never ending. “Is
that she?” I looked blankly, now here, now there. “No, no; not that
way--to the left,” said Charlotte--“there--there!” I saw nothing but a
stream of people following and crossing each other, all equally
commonplace and unknown. I made her sit down, for she was trembling.
“It is impossible,” I said, “to distinguish any individual in such a
crowded street.”
“Oh, not so! not so! I saw her as plainly as I do you now. She was in
the midst of a group which seemed to open and let her be seen. She was
in a grey cloak and veil, exactly as you described her. She shook her
head at me. I almost thought I could hear her speak.”
“It is your imagination that is excited. How could you see at that
distance, much less hear?”
“I thought,” said Charlotte solemnly, “that she said, ‘Too late, too
late!’ I know I could not hear. Do not find fault with me. I am very
unhappy. There! there! you can see her now?”
Somebody in a cloak indeed disappeared in the crowd as I looked out, but
who it was, how could I tell? Perhaps a workwoman going to her work, or
careful manager out to make her market. I took Charlotte’s hand, which
was trembling, and held it in mine. She was sobbing under her breath.
“All this is too much for you,” I said. “Find fault with you? Oh that I
could take this trouble on my own shoulders, whatever it is!”
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