She sprang up, coming quickly to him. Her little hand sought his arm.
"Micky," she breathed softly, with shining eyes, "do it! You can; it's
in you; if you will only leave off--and you can--you must! Think of her,
Micky,--she cried over you--perhaps she's crying yet! Make her smile,
instead! Oh, what makes me talk to you like this, only knowing you a few
weeks? What right--"
He caught her hand as she moved slowly away and drew her back. "What
right?" he echoed warmly. "The best in the world! It does me good!
You're a true friend, you are, and you can see what a mess I've made of
my life and how I could do better if I would--or could, for you don't
know what I have to fight against, Maisie." He drew a chair for her
close to his own. "But then, I'm young yet," he pursued, with a rather
sorry smile. "Time yet, perhaps, for dreams. Dreams!" he repeated, with
a queer, half-shamed look, "how the fellows at the office would laugh to
hear me say that! They'd say I'd gone bug-house."
"Dreams?" she repeated softly, a divine smile in her wistful eyes, "why,
Micky, we're all dreamers. Between here and the store--the store and
here, day after day, don't you suppose they help me; the dreams? Doesn't
it help your work--your old humdrum work, whatever it is, without any
beginning or ending--doesn't it help to mix a little dreaming with it?
Of course, it doesn't really help me--I'm a poor, silly little
thing--but it can help you, Micky--it can help you!"
"'Poor, silly little thing!'" he repeated after her, his eyes
moistening. "Don't, Maisie, it makes me feel like a fool! Why, I'm not
fit to speak to you, girl! The life I've lived--Oh, the road is where I
belong, after all! And the dreams--why, they're just dreams, that's all.
I'd only have to try to realize them to prove it--and I'm afraid. Yes,
when I haven't been drunk, I've been afraid."
She winced at the word, while he, unheeding, stared gloomily at the
carpet. "What--" she began hesitantly, and stopped. He looked up,
comprehending.
"To write," he said simply. "To write instead of scribble. Oh, I can see
things--and I can feel 'em. Seems to me that I could do it--but it looms
up so that I don't dare try. And sometimes I get into the proper mood,
and get squared away--and then--" He broke off with a despairing
gesture.
"I don't know much about those things, of course," she said, "but I like
to read what I can, and it seems to me that feelin' like you do about
it--I mean it's lookin' so big to you--that you ought to be all the more
able to do it."
He stared at her. This subtle viewpoint had never struck him before. "By
George, it takes a girl, after all, to hit the nail square," he told
her. "I never thought of it. But say,--why--it's encouraging, it is!"
"Sure it is." She smiled at him. "You want to get busy."
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