The Last Days of Mary Stuart, and the journal of Bourgoyne her physicianCowan, Samuel
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The Last Days of Mary Stuart, and the journal of Bourgoyne her physician
Cowan, Samuel
Mary, Queen of Scots, 1542-1587 -- Death and burial
“In like manner the expenditure of my household remains, from what I
hear, so uncertain that I cannot in any way check it, being always
dependent on the goodwill of the person who shall have charge of me
for retrenching and disposing of it as he shall think fit. The freedom
promised for my exercise with some recreation has not been preserved
to me, being now prohibited from going out on festival days, without
considering that in consequence of my ailments, and that the time
does not always suit, especially winter, I must take it when I can.
Other encroachments have been made which I cannot construe, but the
restriction and deterioration of my former state, instead of having
it amended as they promised me: it serving no purpose to say that
the time has not been suitable for it, owing to the disorders which
have happened in Christendom, as they have always replied to me,
except that they wish more plainly to say that they cannot find the
time suitable for doing me a good act. It is unreasonable to make me
suffer for that of which I am not the cause, and perchance the treaty
between the said Queen and me had by it prevented a part. I had hoped
that the evidence of my sincerity destroying in her impressions to the
contrary would revive towards me her good disposition, and procure for
me the satisfaction of passing the little of life that remains to me
in the close friendship which I have always so much desired with her.
But alas! I fear that the evil has gone so far as to be irremediable,
however I may endeavour to place the good against the evil, my enemies
being unable to content themselves with this my long-suffering and
imprisonment, or that in it I may never have any peace of mind or body.
And to speak still more freely to you, necessity making me thereon,
to my great regret, overcome shame. I begin to be very ill attended
to in my own person, and with no regard to my infirm state, which
deprives me in a manner mostly of all appetite. For which if they had
been inclined to allow me to supply it at my own cost I should not
have made entreaty. Being more than ever entirely hopeless of better
treatment and of securing my condition and rest here for the future, I
have resolved to renew more urgently than ever the request I have made
to the said Queen all these years past for my liberation, conjuring
her in God's name, and in as far as her conscience towards herself
and honour before the world are dear to her, to see to it speedily. I
entreat you very earnestly to interpose thereto as far as you can the
weight and intercession of the King your master, my brother-in-law,
as the mediator always proposed by me in that matter. The physicians
are of opinion that there are no means left for preserving my life by
strengthening my nerves from the weakness of which by want of exercise
all my maladies proceed, but by some natural warm baths of Italy,
which, being impossible to be had in this country, it seems to me that
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