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After a residence of about a year at Ulswater, Adrian visited London,
and came back full of plans for our benefit. You must begin life, he
said: you are seventeen, and longer delay would render the necessary
apprenticeship more and more irksome. He foresaw that his own life
would be one of struggle, and I must partake his labours with him. The
better to fit me for this task, we must now separate. He found my name
a good passport to preferment, and he had procured for me the situation
of private secretary to the Ambassador at Vienna, where I should enter
on my career under the best auspices. In two years, I should return to
my country, with a name well known and a reputation already founded.
And Perdita?—Perdita was to become the pupil, friend and younger sister
of Evadne. With his usual thoughtfulness, he had provided for her
independence in this situation. How refuse the offers of this generous
friend?—I did not wish to refuse them; but in my heart of hearts, I
made a vow to devote life, knowledge, and power, all of which, in as
much as they were of any value, he had bestowed on me—all, all my
capacities and hopes, to him alone I would devote.
Thus I promised myself, as I journied towards my destination with
roused and ardent expectation: expectation of the fulfilment of all
that in boyhood we promise ourselves of power and enjoyment in
maturity. Methought the time was now arrived, when, childish
occupations laid aside, I should enter into life. Even in the Elysian
fields, Virgil describes the souls of the happy as eager to drink of
the wave which was to restore them to this mortal coil. The young are
seldom in Elysium, for their desires, outstripping possibility, leave
them as poor as a moneyless debtor. We are told by the wisest
philosophers of the dangers of the world, the deceits of men, and the
treason of our own hearts: but not the less fearlessly does each put
off his frail bark from the port, spread the sail, and strain his oar,
to attain the multitudinous streams of the sea of life. How few in
youth’s prime, moor their vessels on the “golden sands,” and collect
the painted shells that strew them. But all at close of day, with riven
planks and rent canvas make for shore, and are either wrecked ere they
reach it, or find some wave-beaten haven, some desart strand, whereon
to cast themselves and die unmourned.
A truce to philosophy!—Life is before me, and I rush into possession.
Hope, glory, love, and blameless ambition are my guides, and my soul
knows no dread. What has been, though sweet, is gone; the present is
good only because it is about to change, and the to come is all my own.
Do I fear, that my heart palpitates? high aspirations cause the flow of
my blood; my eyes seem to penetrate the cloudy midnight of time, and to
discern within the depths of its darkness, the fruition of all my soul
desires.
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