"This man said that he supposed some people thought it was smart to
drink. That hit me rather on the head. We were, the smartest people in
New York, weren't we?"
"Rot!"
"Perhaps. It interested me, though, when I'd gotten over the first
shock. He said another thing that interested me; he said that I was the
first _good_ white woman he'd ever seen smoke."
He laughed harshly.
"At least he did you the honor to think you good."
"Yes,"--still deliberately,--"and it was a novel sensation. It was the
first time any man had ever appealed to the commonplace thing in me
that we call womanhood. He wasn't preaching. It was a practical matter
with him....
"I don't think you'd understand this man, Dick. He takes little things
quite seriously and yet he appears to be laughing at the whole scheme
all the time."
He put his glass down slowly.
"Do you mean that one of these roughnecks has been making love to you?"
"Oh, by no means. I don't think he even likes me and I want him to!
Why, this morning he was going away, was not even going to work for me,
and I had to beg him to stay.
"Dick, you don't understand! This man is so different from you, from
me, from all of us. Rough, yes, but I don't think he'd try to buy a
woman. And if he should I'm sure he'd be most frank about it; he
wouldn't hide behind words."
She looked hard at him and though she smiled her words stung him, but
before he could break in she went on:
"When I sat here having him talk to me last night I had that dreadful
inferior feeling again, felt as though I weren't up to the standard of
good women that these roughnecks hold. I can't explain it to you
because you wouldn't let yourself understand. I was furious for a time,
but he was right, according to his way of thinking.
"That way is going to be my way,"--with growing firmness. "I'm playing
a new game and I must play it according to the rules. I did more than
make up my mind to leave the drinks and cigarettes alone. I resolved
that I'd try to be worthy in every way of the respect I want these men
to have for me!"
"Because this Westerner doesn't approve of the way you have lived?"
"Yes. He knows the rules of the new game."
"Jane, I'm going to stop this foolishness!" He advanced to her and
caught her hands in his. "I love you, I love you! I'm not going to see
you losing your head this way!"
She struggled to withdraw her hands.
"No, I'm going to hold you, going to keep you. I'm--" He drew her to
him roughly, but she slipped from the clasp of his arm and backed
across the room, her hands still imprisoned in his.
"Dick!"
It was not her cry which caused him to halt. It was a step outside the
door and, standing there, her hands in his, he met the level, amused
gaze of Tom Beck.
Jane turned from him and he let her go without attempt to restrain her
further.
"Ma'am, the horses are here. Your foreman said to tell you."
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