1. If you died this instant what would become of you? And could you face death unflinchingly? I know not what would become of me but I fear I should go to eternal torments. And do not think I could face death unflinchingly for this reason. 2. What would be your first emotion when you found yourself in the presence of the Judge of quick and dead? Fear I think but yet I think that I should claim Jesus’ promises to lost sinners. 3. If Christ came this night and asked you ‘Lovest thou me’ what would be your answer? Yes Lord although I am very wicked and cold and dull yet I could say without hesitation I do love thee very much I often feel my heart warm towards thee and something tells me that one day I shall love thee far better than I do now. 4. Could you before God say truly ‘I strive to live as I hope to die’? No I fear I could not although sometimes I do try to do things to please Jesus. 5. Do you really in your heart know your religion to be a mere form or do you really feel its life-giving influence on your heart? I know I often say far more than I really believe, I even have been tempted so far as to doubt in my heart the existence of a Diety but yet I have had a few bright moments in which I could sincerely say Yes I _know_ it I know that Christ is mine and I am his but a deep gloom is generally over my spirit. 6. Do you in your heart believe yourself to be a new creature? I know not but I fear not although at times I have been fully convinced that I am God’s child. 7. Do you earnestly desire to be such? Most earnestly whenever anything touches that chord in my heart and sometimes I could weep bitterly but generally I feel awfully indifferent as to my soul. 8. Do you think you have ever known what true prayer is? Most certainly and have sometimes obtained very gracious answers. 9. Where will you be 200 years hence? In heaven I humbly hope and trust for I think the Lord has _begun_ a good work in me.” Gallant honest heart! Is there a single word in the whole confession that the most devoted parent would have wished different? CHAPTER III SCHOOL LIFE—_Continued_ “I think the Lord has _begun_ a good work in me.” Is there in the words a—very human and pardonable—suggestion of St. Augustine’s “_Timebam enim ne me cito exaudires_”? In any case, though doubtless the good work went on, it cannot be denied that the tares flourished abundantly with the wheat.