“Mummy says it is (my boarding-house troubles, she means) quite an
experience of life. Truly not in these alone. Many, I believe, never
live as _much_, and _through as much_, as I have done already, in the
whole course of life.”
Fortunately there was one house at least where she could always take
refuge, and never failed to find herself a welcome guest,—the house of
Mr. Cordery at Hampstead. Her brother had married one of the daughters,
Miss Henrietta Cordery, in June 1857, but the friendship was of much
longer standing than that, and it would be difficult to exaggerate the
comfort and support she derived from it throughout life. With Mr. James
Cordery and his sisters Emma and Bertha (now Mrs. S. R. Gardiner) in
particular she remained in intimate association, and always managed—even
after years of separation—to take up the threads again without a break.
She was always at her best in that Hampstead home, full of gaiety and
_joie de vivre_—never afraid to be her real audacious young self.
Immediately after the extract from the diary given above, she goes on
light-heartedly:
“I am so _thoroughly_ happy in this way of life, hardly any other
could suit me as well. So independent, yet so busy, so comfortable,
yet not luxurious. Plenty, yet no superfluity. It is certainly _very_
kind of the dear ‘old folks’ to let me have it so, and very wise. I
should never, at least at present, have settled at home. I should have
been ever longing for independence and work, and now I have all I want
and may yet do good. Having, as Maurice would say, found my centre,
other things will, I trust, grow up around it. I trust most fervently
I may yet be a real comfort to my precious Mother and dear kind
Father. As last year I computed my ‘worldly estate,’ as quaint old
Pepys, whose diary I am reading, would say; I do it again. I have now
for dress and private money £40 per year. Henceforth I shall have
tutor’s money as well. From my Father I have, I think, as well as I
can calculate, about £50 a term for all expenses, besides all paid
when at home, as well as travelling expenses with them or anywhere
(except while at College) and riding, etc. So in actual money I have
about £200 a year and in money’s worth another £100. Therefore I
conclude about £300 a year to be about the happy medium of wealth for
a single woman. Dear generous old Father! Few would, I think, give so
much in so good a way to their children. I believe as regards
happiness and satisfaction never was money better, if never more
kindly, spent. I must try to pay back the ‘labour of love,’ and
‘requite my parents,’ dear, dear old things! Bless them both.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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