While this superadded consciousness of the actual was almost constant
with me, I had never had a recurrence of that distinct prevision which
I have described in relation to my first interview with Bertha; and I
was waiting with eager curiosity to know whether or not my vision of
Prague would prove to have been an instance of the same kind. A few
days after the incident of the opal ring, we were paying one of our
frequent visits to the Lichtenberg Palace. I could never look at many
pictures in succession; for pictures, when they are at all powerful,
affect me so strongly that one or two exhaust all my capability of
contemplation. This morning I had been looking at Giorgione's picture
of the cruel-eyed woman, said to be a likeness of Lucrezia Borgia. I
had stood long alone before it, fascinated by the terrible reality
of that cunning, relentless face, till I felt a strange poisoned
sensation, as if I had long been inhaling a fatal odour, and was just
beginning to be conscious of its effects. Perhaps even then I should
not have moved away, if the rest of the party had not returned to this
room, and announced that they were going to the Belvedere Gallery to
settle a bet which had arisen between my brother and Mr. Filmore about
a portrait. I followed them dreamily, and was hardly alive to what
occurred till they had all gone up to the gallery, leaving me below;
for I refused to come within sight of another picture that day. I made
my way to the Grand Terrace, since it was agreed that we should saunter
in the gardens when the dispute had been decided. I had been sitting
here a short space, vaguely conscious of trim gardens, with a city and
green hills in the distance, when, wishing to avoid the proximity of
the sentinel, I rose and walked down the broad stone steps, intending
to seat myself farther on in the gardens. Just as I reached the
gravel-walk, I felt an arm slipped within mine, and a light hand gently
pressing my wrist. In the same instant a strange intoxicating numbness
passed over me, like the continuance or climax of the sensation I was
still feeling from the gaze of Lucrezia Borgia. The gardens, the summer
sky, the consciousness of Bertha's arm being within mine, all vanished,
and I seemed to be suddenly in darkness, out of which there gradually
broke a dim firelight, and I felt myself sitting in my father's leather
chair in the library at home. I knew the fireplace--the dogs for
the wood-fire--the black marble chimney-piece with the white marble
medallion of the dying Cleopatra in the centre. Intense and hopeless
misery was pressing on my soul; the light became stronger, for Bertha
was entering with a candle in her hand--Bertha, my wife--with cruel
eyes, with green jewels and green leaves on her white ball-dress; every
hateful thought within her present to me . . . "Madman, idiot! why
don't you kill yourself, then?" It was a moment of hell. I saw into
her pitiless soul--saw its barren worldliness, its scorching hate--and
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