Christian life -- Fiction; Clergy -- England -- Fiction; Paranormal fiction; Short stories, English
“Now you are wondering, I expect, why I did not get some other woman to
break the news to her. Well, I had debated that ever since I had
volunteered to be the bearer of these tidings: and partly because I was
afraid of being cowardly––call it pride if you will––and partly for
other reasons which I need not mention, I felt I was bound to fulfil my
promise literally. It might be, I thought too, that she would prefer the
news to be known by as few people as possible. At least, whether I
judged rightly or wrongly, here was my task before me.
“She stood there,” the old man went on, pointing to the doorpost on the
right, “and I here,” and he pointed a yard further back, “and the door
was wide open as it is now, and the fragrant evening air poured past us
into the room. Her face would be partly in shadow; but in her eyes there
was just a dawning wonder at my abruptness, with perhaps the faintest
tinge of anxiety, but no more.
“‘I have come,’ I said slowly, looking out into the garden, ‘on a very
hard errand.’ I could not go on. I turned and looked at her. Ah! the
anxiety had deepened a little. ‘And––and it concerns you and your
happiness.’ I looked again, and I remember how her face had changed. Her
lips were a little open, and her eyes shone wide open, half in shadow
and half in light, and there were new and terrible little lines on her
forehead. And then I told her.
“It was done in a sentence or two, and when I looked again her lips had
closed and her hand had clenched itself into the moulding of the
doorpost. I can see her rings now blazing in the light that poured over
the chestnut tree (it was lower then) into the room. Then her lips moved
once or twice––her hand unclenched itself hesitatingly––and she went
steadily across the room. There was a great sofa there then, and when
she reached it she threw herself face downwards across the arm and back.
“And I waited at the doorway, looking out at the iron gate. Sorrow was
new to me then. I had not learnt to understand it then, or to be quiet
under it. And as I looked I knew only that there was a terrible struggle
going on in the room behind. There in front of me was a garden full of
peace and sweetness and the soft glow of sunset light; and there behind
me was something very like hell––and I stood between the living and the
dead.
“Then I remembered that I was a priest, and ought to be able to say
something––just a word of the Divine message that the Saviour
brought––but I could not. I felt I was in deep waters. Even God seemed
far away, intolerably serene and aloof; and I longed with all my power
for a human person to pray and to bear a little of that strife behind
me, from which I felt separated by so wide a gulf. And then God gave me
the clear vision again.
“You see the iron gate,” the old man went on, pointing. “Well, right
between those posts, but a little above them, outlined clearly against
the chestnut tree, beyond, was the figure of a man.
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