England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Short stories, English
"It doesn't matter," she said, and she laughed; "I--I wasn't serious. I
saw you were trying to play the old comedy, and I thought I had better
play up to you. If I'd known you were married--but it was only your
glove, and we're such old acquaintances! There's another dance
beginning. Please go--I've no doubt my partner will find me."
He bowed, gave her one glance, and went. Halfway down the stairs he
turned and came back. She was still sitting as he had left her. The
angry eyes she raised to him were full of tears. She looked as she had
looked ten years before, when he had come back to her, and the cursed
gloves had spoiled everything. He hated himself. Why had he played with
fire and raised this ghost to vex her? It had been such pretty fire, and
such a beautiful ghost. But she had been hurt--he had hurt her. She
would blame herself now for that old past; as for the new past, so
lately the present, it would not bear thinking of.
The scene must be rounded off somehow. He had let her wound her pride,
her self-respect. He must heal them. The light touch would be best.
"Look here," he said, "I just wanted to tell you that I knew you weren't
serious just now. As you say, it was nothing between two such old
friends. And--and--" He sought about for some further consolation.
Ill-inspired, with the touch of her lips still on his hand, he said,
"And about the gloves. Don't blame yourself about that. It was not your
fault. You were perfectly right. It _was_ the gloves I came back for."
He left her then, and next day journeyed to Scotland to rejoin his wife,
of whom he was, by habit, moderately fond. He still keeps the white
glove she kissed, and at first reproached himself whenever he looked at
it. But now he only sentimentalises over it now and then, if he happens
to be a little under the weather. He feels that his foolish behaviour at
that Sydenham dance was almost atoned for by the nobility with which he
lied to spare her, the light, delicate touch with which he rounded off
the scene.
He certainly did round it off. By a few short, easy words he
accomplished three things. He destroyed an ideal of himself which she
had cherished for years; he killed a pale bud of hope which she had
loved to nurse--the hope that perhaps in that old past it had been she
who was to blame, and not he, whom she loved; he trampled in the mud the
living rose which would have bloomed her life long, the belief that he
had loved, did love her--the living rose that would have had magic to
quench the fire of shame kindled by that unasked kiss, a fire that frets
for ever like hell-fire, burning, but not consuming, her self-respect.
He did, without doubt, round off the scene.
THE OBVIOUS
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