The Little Moment of HappinessKelland, Clarence Budington
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The Little Moment of Happiness
Kelland, Clarence Budington
Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
It was a futile day and he was glad when it came to an end. It was not
until he was hanging his cap on the hall tree that he remembered Andree
was to come—to come there to dine this evening. He paused with hand in
mid-air as he recalled how they had made the plan. Hereafter she was not
to meet him at the Metro, but would come directly to the apartment. It
would be better, and there was something exquisitely attractive about
it. He had been very happy. Her lips had been close to his as she had
given her promise to come there to him; the perfume of her had been in
his nostrils, and in that maddening way of perfumes it returned now
unasked and undesired. It was almost as if she were there, close to him,
but invisible. He remembered that she had lain in his arms at the
moment, smiling, sweet, a marvelous creature to be treasured with a
great tenderness.... And she had gone from that to a meeting with
another man—to purchase material success at the price of spurious
love!...
What should he do? He did not want to see her, felt that he could not
undergo the ordeal of seeing her.... He snatched his cap and turned to
the door, only to replace it again on the hall tree and to stand
wavering, undecided.... He did not know it, would not admit it, but his
heart cried out to see her, to feel the delight of her presence.... He
despised her, but he loved her.... As one does at such moments, he
sought refuge in sophistry. It was necessary for him to see her this
last single time. He must tell her that he had detected her infamy and,
with harsh words, cast her out of his life. He told himself that this
was both appropriate and essential.... Yes, he would allow her to come
and would admit her—and then—and then she should hear the truth, the
bald truth. She should hear what a decent man thought of such behavior
as hers.... Not that it would benefit her or change a character that
could be guilty of the thing of which she was guilty.... But he had to
accuse her.... It was the desire, the cruel desire, which comes to every
man at some moment, for some cause, to inflict agony on the one he most
loves....
Kendall glanced at his watch. It wanted fifteen minutes to seven, the
hour at which Andree would arrive, so he went into the _salon_, there to
pace up and down, restlessly composing dignified but biting speeches one
after the other and forgetting them as soon as composed.... Bert entered
and spoke to him, but Kendall only growled, and Bert passed into his own
room with a shrug. From the door to the window Kendall paced, and from
the window to the door, to and fro, with rapid, excited stride. As the
moment of Andree’s arrival neared, his thoughts became less coherent and
himself more apprehensive. He felt that it was his duty to be very
angry, so he worked himself up to anger.... Then came a soft, timid rap
at the door.
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