A dirty room in a low-class restaurant. A table, at which people sit
drinking tea and vódka. In the foreground a small table, at which
sits Fédya, tattered, and much come down in the world. With him is
Petushkóv, a gentle, mild man with long hair, of clerical
appearance. Both are slightly drunk.
PETUSHKÓV. I understand, I understand. That is true love! Yes? Go on.
FÉDYA. Well, you know, if a woman of our class showed such feeling and
sacrificed everything for the man she loved.... But she was a gipsy,
brought up to money-hunting, and yet she had this self-sacrificing love!
Gave everything, and wanted nothing herself! The contrast was so
wonderful!
PETUSHKÓV. Yes, in art we call it "value." You can only get quite bright
red by putting green round it. But that's not to the point. I
understand, quite understand.
FÉDYA. Yes, and I believe the one good action of my life is that I never
took advantage of her love. And do you know why?
PETUSHKÓV. Pity.
FÉDYA. Oh no! I never felt pity for her. What I felt for her was always
rapturous admiration--and when she sang! Ah, how she sang--and perhaps
still sings! I always regarded her as far above me. I did not ruin her,
simply because I loved her; loved her truly. And now she's a good, happy
memory! [Drinks].
PETUSHKÓV. Yes, I understand, I understand. It's ideal.
FÉDYA. I'll tell you something. I have had my passions, and once I was
in love with a lady--very handsome--and I loved her nastily, like a dog.
She gave me a _rendezvous_. And I did not go, because I thought it was
treating the husband shabbily. And it is strange that, even now, when I
remember it I want to feel pleased and to approve of myself for having
acted honourably, but I always repent as if I had committed a sin! But
in the case of Másha, on the contrary, I am always pleased--pleased that
I did not pollute that feeling of mine.... I may fall lower still, sell
all I have on me, be covered with lice and sores--but this jewel ... no,
not jewel, but ray of sunshine, is still with me and in me.
PETUSHKÓV. I understand, I understand! And where is she now?
FÉDYA. I don't know! And I'd rather not know. All _that_ belonged to a
different life; and I don't want to mix it up with this....
A woman is heard screaming at a table behind. The manager and a
policeman come in and take her out. Fédya and Petushkóv listen, and
look on in silence. When all is quiet again,
PETUSHKÓV. Yes, your life is astonishing.
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