They can "stand anything," as they have let it be generally known. But,
by dressing like freaks and by being able to stand anything, they have
detracted considerably from their attraction for men; for freaks are
well enough in freak-land but look rather silly in the world as it
is--which is the world that matters, after all; and what the devil is
the good of being polite and making a fuss of a woman if she tells you
repeatedly that she can "stand anything," and much prefers the feeling
of independence fostered by lighting cigarettes with her own matches,
and opening doors with her own so unmanicured fingers?
I suddenly realise at this very moment of writing why those months in
South Kensington seemed so overpoweringly dismal, and that even now it
is only time which lends a real pleasure to the memory of the tall, dim
figure (Mr. Charles Garvice would have called her "sylph-like." I wish I
were Mr. Garvice) which stood on my doorstep on an autumn night, and so
mysteriously asked for me. For that beginning had a dreary end, as
indeed all endings are dreary if the silken cord is not swiftly and
sharply cut, thus leaving a neat and wonderful surprise, instead of the
long-drawn ending of frayed edges and worn-out emotions which drive
quite nice young men into a premature cynicism of dotage.
For we very soon tired of each other, and began to slip away into our
different lives with a great deal of talk about our "wonderful
friendship"; though we both of us knew very well that there is nothing
left to eat in an empty oyster, and nothing to talk about on a desert
island except how deserted it is, and nothing to look forward to when
you have too quickly reached _Ultima Thule_ but to get as quickly back
again and examine your bruises--but he is a coward who hasn't enough
kick left in him to begin again and repeat his mistake, for though two
wrongs may not make a right, three or four mistakes of this sort do
certainly make a man.... So we both set out to get back again, but not
as quickly as possible, because Phyllis is a woman, and, perhaps, I am
by way of having a few manners left--and, therefore, we had to take the
longest way back; and were both very tired and bored with each other
when at last I suddenly left her one night after dinner at her house at
half-past nine, because I had a headache--"my dear, aspirin isn't any
good, really it isn't"--and was sure she had one, too....
Six months ago I had a letter from her, saying that she was going to
marry a nice fat baronet, a real, not a Brummagem one, and not so much
because of his money, but because of his nice, solid, middle-class
ideas, which would help to tone down hers. Phyllis was like that, and
I've often wondered very much about that wretched baronet, whether he
will tone her down, or whether she will persuade him to open a hat shop
off Bond Street in aid of a "bus conductors'" orphanage.
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