If it were any other man than Nikolay, I would know him well, for I have
seen much of him, but one knows men by their "points of view," and I am
not sure that Nikolay ever had one. He was, or rather he seemed
definitely to be, curiously wise; one never put his wisdom to the test;
one never heard him say an overpoweringly wise thing, but there was no
doubt that he was wise. People said he was wise. Women said it. A
strange man, indeed; queer, and a little sinister. Perhaps six hundred
years ago he might have been an alchemist living in a three-storied
house in Prague, exiled from his native land of Russia for criticising
too openly the size of the Czarina's ears; for Nikolay knows no fear, he
can be ruder than any man I know. I have heard him answer a woman that
her new hat didn't suit her at all. "I think it is a rotten hat," he
said, and the vanity of an admitted thirty years faded from her, she was
as a dejected _houri_ before the repelling eyes of a Salhadine.
He had not always been so detached and passionless. Steps of folly must
somehow have led up to that philosophic wisdom which so definitely
obtruded on the consciousness; so definitely, indeed, that I have
watched women, as we perhaps sat round the card-table in his studio, and
seen them in their manner defer to him, as though he were a great man in
the eyes of the world, which he isn't. But to be treated as a great man,
even by women, when you are not a great man, is indeed the essence of
greatness! Bravo, Nikolay! I see you, not as I have always seen you, but
in Paris, where rumour tells of you; in Paris, where your art was your
hobby and life your serious business, and a dress suit the essential of
your visibility of an evening.
I feel riot and revelry somewhere in you, Nikolay; the dim green lights
of past experiences do very queerly mock the wisdom in your
contemplative eye. I am to suppose, then, that you have seen other
things than the rehearsals of a ballet, have marvelled at other things
than the architecture of Spanish-Gothic cathedrals? Ah, I have the
secret of you! You are a mediæval, a knight of old exotic times, a Sir
Lancelot without naïveté. Now, as the years take you, it is only in your
drawings that your mind runs cynically riot among the indiscretions of
literature--what a sinister inner gleam I espied in you when you told me
that you were going to illustrate the poems of François Villon! But in
Paris, long ago, I see you, Nikolay, standing in the curtained doorway
of a cushion-spread studio, where the lights shine faintly through the
red arabesques patterned on the black lamp shades. I see you standing
there with a half-empty glass of Courvoisier in your hand, sipping, and
watching, and smiling.... And women, perhaps--nay! a princess for very
certain, it is said--running wild over the immobility of your face,
immobile even through those first perfervid years.
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