Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
“And my nephew, this being so, make up your quarrel with your wife.”
She stretched out her hand to him with real feeling. “It is easier now
than it will be later. Poor lady, she has written to me foolishly and
often, but, on the whole, I side with her against you. She would grant
you all that you fought for—all the people, all the theories. I have
it, in her writing, that she will never interfere with your life again.”
“She cannot help interfering,” said Rickie, with his eyes on the black
windows. “She despises me. Besides, I do not love her.”
“I know, my dear. Nor she you. I am not being sentimental. I say
once more, beware of the earth. We are conventional people, and
conventions—if you will but see it—are majestic in their way, and
will claim us in the end. We do not live for great passions or for
great memories, or for anything great.”
He threw up his head. “We do.”
“Now listen to me. I am serious and friendly tonight, as you must have
observed. I have asked you here partly to amuse myself—you belong
to my March Past—but also to give you good advice. There has been a
volcano—a phenomenon which I too once greatly admired. The eruption
is over. Let the conventions do their work now, and clear the rubbish
away. My age is fifty-nine, and I tell you solemnly that the important
things in life are little things, and that people are not important at
all. Go back to your wife.”
He looked at her, and was filled with pity. He knew that he would never
be frightened of her again. Only because she was serious and friendly
did he trouble himself to reply. “There is one little fact I should
like to tell you, as confuting your theory. The idea of a story—a long
story—had been in my head for a year. As a dream to amuse myself—the
kind of amusement you would recommend for the future. I should have
had time to write it, but the people round me coloured my life, and so
it never seemed worth while. For the story is not likely to pay. Then
came the volcano. A few days after it was over I lay in bed looking out
upon a world of rubbish. Two men I know—one intellectual, the other
very much the reverse—burst into the room. They said, ‘What happened
to your short stories? They weren’t good, but where are they? Why have
you stopped writing? Why haven’t you been to Italy? You must write. You
must go. Because to write, to go, is you.’ Well, I have written, and
yesterday we sent the long story out on its rounds. The men do not like
it, for different reasons. But it mattered very much to them that I
should write it, and so it got written. As I told you, this is only one
fact; other facts, I trust, have happened in the last five months. But
I mention it to prove that people are important, and therefore, however
much it inconveniences my wife, I will not go back to her.”
“And Italy?” asked Mrs. Failing.
This question he avoided. Italy must wait. Now that he had the time, he
had not the money.
“Or what is the long story about, then?”
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