Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
“Of course,” said Mr. Pembroke.
The parent of a boarder, who only had to remove his son if he was
discontented with the school, was naturally in a more independent
position than the parent who had brought all his goods and chattels to
Sawston, and was renting a house there.
“Now the parents of boarders—this is my second point—practically
demand that the house-master should have a wife.”
“A most unreasonable demand,” said Mr. Pembroke.
“To my mind also a bright motherly matron is quite sufficient. But that
is what they demand. And that is why—do you see?—we _have_ to regard
your appointment as experimental. Possibly Miss Pembroke will be able
to help you. Or I don’t know whether if ever—” He left the sentence
unfinished. Two days later Mr. Pembroke proposed to Mrs. Orr.
He had always intended to marry when he could afford it; and once he
had been in love, violently in love, but had laid the passion aside,
and told it to wait till a more convenient season. This was, of course,
the proper thing to do, and prudence should have been rewarded. But
when, after the lapse of fifteen years, he went, as it were, to his
spiritual larder and took down Love from the top shelf to offer him to
Mrs. Orr, he was rather dismayed. Something had happened. Perhaps the
god had flown; perhaps he had been eaten by the rats. At all events, he
was not there.
Mr. Pembroke was conscientious and romantic, and knew that marriage
without love is intolerable. On the other hand, he could not admit that
love had vanished from him. To admit this, would argue that he had
deteriorated.
Whereas he knew for a fact that he had improved, year by year. Each
year be grew more moral, more efficient, more learned, more genial. So
how could he fail to be more loving? He did not speak to himself as
follows, because he never spoke to himself; but the following notions
moved in the recesses of his mind: “It is not the fire of youth. But
I am not sure that I approve of the fire of youth. Look at my sister!
Once she has suffered, twice she has been most imprudent, and put me to
great inconvenience besides, for if she was stopping with me she would
have done the housekeeping. I rather suspect that it is a nobler, riper
emotion that I am laying at the feet of Mrs. Orr.” It never took him
long to get muddled, or to reverse cause and effect. In a short time he
believed that he had been pining for years, and only waiting for this
good fortune to ask the lady to share it with him.
Mrs. Orr was quiet, clever, kindly, capable, and amusing and they were
old acquaintances. Altogether it was not surprising that he should ask
her to be his wife, nor very surprising that she should refuse. But
she refused with a violence that alarmed them both. He left her house
declaring that he had been insulted, and she, as soon as he left,
passed from disgust into tears.
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