"The awakening is going to be a terrible blow to Helen," she said to
her husband. "She is so proud of him."
"On the contrary," he protested, "it will be the awakening of
Aintree--if Helen will stand for the way he's acting, she is not the
girl I know. And when he finds she won't, and that he may lose her,
he'll pull up short. He's talked Helen to me night after night until
he's bored me so I could strangle him. He cares more for her than he
does for anything, for the army, or for himself, and that's saying a
great deal. One word from her will be enough."
Helen spoke the word three weeks after she arrived. It had not been
necessary to tell her of the manner in which her lover was
misconducting himself. At various dinners given in their honor he had
made a nuisance of himself; on another occasion, while in uniform, he
had created a scene in the dining-room of the Tivoli under the prying
eyes of three hundred seeing-the-Canal tourists; and one night he had
so badly beaten up a cabman who had laughed at his condition that the
man went to the hospital. Major Carter, largely with money, had healed
the injuries of the cabman, but Helen, who had witnessed the assault,
had suffered an injury that money could not heal.
She sent for Aintree, and at the home of her friend delivered her
ultimatum.
"I hit him because he was offensive to you," said Aintree. "That's why
I hit him. If I'd not had a drink in a year, I'd have hit him just as
quick and just as hard."
"Can't you see," said the girl, "that in being not yourself when I was
in your care you were much more insulting to me than any cabman could
possibly be? When you are like that you have no respect for me, or for
yourself. Part of my pride in you is that you are so strong, that you
control yourself, that common pleasures never get a hold on you. If
you couldn't control your temper I wouldn't blame you, because you've a
villainous temper and you were born with it. But you weren't born with
a taste for liquor. None of your people drank. You never drank until
you went into the army. If I were a man," declared the girl, "I'd be
ashamed to admit anything was stronger than I was. You never let pain
beat you. I've seen you play polo with a broken arm, but in this you
give pain to others, you shame and humiliate the one you pretend to
love, just because you are weak, just because you can't say 'no.'"
Aintree laughed angrily.
"Drink has no hold on me," he protested. "It affects me as much as the
lights and the music affect a girl at her first dance, and no more.
But, if you ask me to stop--"
"I do not!" said the girl. "If you stop, you'll stop not because I
have any influence over you, but because you don't need my influence.
If it's wrong, if it's hurting you, if it's taking away your usefulness
and your power for good, that's why you'll stop. Not because a girl
begs you. Or you're not the man I think you."
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