"Red bed," says Carlyle in a letter to his wife, "will stand behind the
drawing-room"--and here it is! A four-poster with bare laths hung with
faded red curtains and flounce. There is nothing more intimate than a
bed, but this bed, standing so many years unwarmed by human contact, has
outlived all such associations. It was not always a kind bed, either,
judging from the tragic account in her letters of Jane's sleepless
nights. "Oh!" she writes, "if there was any sleep to be got in that bed
wherever it stands!" (alluding to a change in the position of her bed at
Chelsea). "But it looks to my excited imagination, that bed I was born
in, like a sort of instrument of red-hot torture; after all those nights
I lay meditating on self-destruction as my only escape from insanity." A
woman who could express her sufferings in such vivid language would be
spared no iota of misery. Pin-pricks, which a stupid person might
ignore, would to Jane be sword-thrusts.
As one thinks of her one remembers those words written by her husband:
"Rest? Rest? Shall I not have all Eternity to rest in?" and there, on
the wall close at hand, hangs the photograph of her grave in Haddington
Church.
But, dear me, Agatha, this won't do! I don't want (to quote my pal, Mrs.
D.) to give you the "bloomin' 'ump". One must remember that Jane was not
always ill or unhappy. Jane had her bright days and her friends,
"dandering individuals dropping in," Charles Dickens, Thackeray, Alfred
Tennyson. Note this little vignette of the latter: "Passing through a
long, dim passage" (she was at the theatre) "I came on a tall man leant
to the wall, with his head touching the ceiling like a caryatid, to all
appearances asleep, or resolutely trying it under most unfavourable
circumstances. 'Alfred Tennyson,' I exclaimed in joyful surprise.
'Well,' said he, taking the hand I held out to him and forgetting to let
it go again, 'I should like to know who you are. I know that I know you,
but I cannot tell your name.'"
Then, too, there was Macready, D'Orsay, Lord Houghton, and Mazzini. Of
the latter she says, "He told me there was nothing worth recording
except that he had received the other day a declaration of love. Of
course, I asked the particulars. Why not?--and I got them fully." And
again, "He had had two other declarations of love! 'What, more of them?'
'Ah, yes!--unhappily! They begin to rain on me like _sauterelles_!'"
Mrs. Darling said there was "nothink in _that_!" _Her_ old man had had
six proposals before _she_ herself annexed him. I inquired how she had
succeeded in capturing such a shy bird, and she said it only needed a
bit of confidence and a lot of soft soap. _Any_ woman could marry _any_
man if she properly set her mind to it. The news was rather disquieting;
also, it was not exactly flattering to one's vanity to reflect that,
apparently, no woman had been anxious enough to marry me to set her mind
properly to the task.
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