As the manuscript of the book lay upon my table, I wondered if any
publisher would feel the human pathos of the struggle, and the mighty
meaning of it all for truth. Who would publish it? But here it is,
printed and bound, a book--“For the Benefit of My Creditors,” as if he
were debtor to all, his enemies included, and owed them only love.
This is as modest and self-withholding a story as a man ever told of
himself. There are all too few of such human stories. This one would
never have been told had the author not hated intellectual cowardice
as he hated moral cowardice, with a perfect hatred. He sought the
truth--in the Bible, and in his own mind. The geologist seeks some
of the same truth in the rocks; the astronomer in the stars. The Old
Testament was this scholar’s field. And, laying aside tradition and the
spirit of dogma, he sought as a scientist seeks, patiently, fearlessly,
reverently, for what his long and thorough preparation made him
eminently able to find.
This is the highest type of courage and daring. Who finds truth finds
trial and adventure. In his condemnation by the bishops of his Church,
he felt that truth had been assailed and the scientific method. He did
not write this book to defend the truth, nor to defend himself; but to
examine himself, as he would examine a difficult fragment of Hebrew
manuscript, and make himself easy for other men to read.
His trial was long past, and most of his life had been lived, before a
page of his book was written. He came at it reluctantly: he might seem
personal--petty or selfish or egotistical; or he might say something
bitter and vindictive and do harm to the Church. But neither himself
nor his Church must stand in the way of truth; and in his trial, truth
had been tried, and the only way of knowing truth had been condemned.
So he sits down to write this story of his life exactly as he sat down
to write a commentary on the Book of Genesis--to account for his being
as a man and a scholar, his preparation, his methods of study, his
attitude, and approach.
How much truth has he discovered? He makes no claims. Darwin may or may
not have the truth about Evolution; but we have a certain and a great
truth in Darwin--in his mind and method. It was _how_ Darwin tried to
solve the problem of life and its forms, rather than the solution, that
has changed the thinking of the world.
For three years I was a student of Hebrew and Old Testament Exegesis
under this scholar. I have forgotten all he taught me, and more. But
the _way_ he taught me has changed forever my outlook upon life. His
attitude was truth, and it flooded not only the whole mind, but one’s
whole being, with light. Many a time I have sat in his classroom during
the discussion of some highly difficult and dangerous question of
doctrine, and said to myself, amid the drawn daggers of those who had
come to trap him, “Right or wrong his findings, he is himself truth,
its life and way.”
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