“Chilcote, you wrote last night to recall me--” Once again he paused,
checked by a new interruption. Sitting up again, Chilcote struck out
suddenly with his left hand in a rush of his old irritability.
“Damn you!” he cried, suddenly, “what are you talking about? Look at
me! Get me the stuff. I tell you it's imperative.” In his excitement his
breath failed and he coughed. At the effort his whole frame was shaken.
Loder walked to the dressing-table, then back to the bed. A deep
agitation was at work in his mind.
Again Chilcote's lips parted. “Loder,” he said, faintly--“Loder, I
must--I must have it. It's imperative.” Once more he attempted to lift
himself, but the effort was futile.
Again Loder turned away.
“Loder--for God's sake--”
With a fierce gesture the other turned on him. “Good heavens! man--”
he began. Then unaccountably his voice changed. The suggestion that had
been hovering in his mind took sudden and definite shape. “All right!”
he said, in a lower voice. “All right! Stay as you are.”
He crossed to where the empty tumbler stood and hastily mixed the
whiskey and water; then crossing to the mantel-piece where lay the small
glass tube containing the tightly packed tabloids, he paused and glanced
once more towards the bed. “How many?” he said, laconically.
Chilcote lifted his head. His face was pitiably drawn, but the feverish
brightness in his eyes had increased. “Five,” he said, sharply. “Five.
Do you hear, Loder?”
“Five?” Involuntarily Loder lowered the hand that held the tube.
From previous confidences of Chilcote's he knew the amount of morphia
contained in each tabloid, and realized that five tabloids, if not
an absolutely dangerous, was at least an excessive dose, even for one
accustomed to the drug. For a moment his resolution failed; then the
dominant-note of his nature--the unconscious, fundamental egotism on
which his character was based--asserted itself beyond denial. It might
be reprehensible, it might even be criminal to accede to such a request,
made by a man in such a condition of body and mind; yet the laws of the
universe demanded self-assertion--prompted every human mind to desire,
to grasp, and to hold. With a perception swifter than any he had
experienced, he realized the certain respite to be gained by yielding to
his impulse. He looked at Chilcote with his haggard, anxious expression,
his eager, restless eyes; and a vision of himself followed sharp upon
his glance. A vision of the untiring labor of the past ten days, of the
slowly kindling ambition, of the supremacy all but gained. Then, as the
picture completed itself, he lifted his hand with an abrupt movement and
dropped the five tabloids one after another into the glass.
XXV
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