For a space he stood absolutely quiet, then his hands dropped to his
sides and he turned slowly round. In that short space he had balanced
things and found his bearings. The slight nervousness shown in his
brusque sentences and overconfident manner faded out, and he faced facts
steadily.
With the return of his calmness he took a long survey of the room. His
glance brightened appreciatively as it travelled from the walls lined
with well-bound books to the lamps modulated to the proper light;
from the lamps to the desk fitted with every requirement. Nothing was
lacking. All he had once possessed, all he had since dreamed of, was
here, but on a greater scale. To enjoy the luxuries of life a man must
go long without them. Loder had lived severely--so severely that until
three weeks ago he had believed himself exempt from the temptations of
humanity. Then the voice of the world had spoken, and within him another
voice had answered, with a tone so clamorous and insistent that it had
outcried his surprised and incredulous wonder at its existence and its
claims. That had been the voice of suppressed ambition; and now as he
stood in the new atmosphere a newer voice lifted itself. The joy of
material things rose suddenly, overbalancing the last remnant of the
philosophy he had reared. He saw all things in a fresh light--the soft
carpets, the soft lights, the numberless pleasant, unnecessary things
that color the passing landscape and oil the wheels of life. This was
power--power made manifest. The choice bindings of one's books, the
quiet harmony of one's surroundings, the gratifying deference of one's
dependants--these were the visible, the outward signs, the things he had
forgotten.
Crossing the room slowly, he lifted and looked at the different papers
on the desk. They had a substantial feeling, an importance, an air of
value. They were like the solemn keys to so many vexed problems. Beside
the papers were a heap of letters neatly arranged and as yet unopened.
He turned them over one by one. They were all thick, and interesting to
look at. He smiled as he recalled his own scanty mail: envelopes long
and bulky or narrow and thin--unwelcome manuscripts or very welcome
checks. Having sorted the letters, he hesitated. It was his task to
open them, but he had never in his life opened an envelope addressed to
another man.
He stood uncertain, weighing them in his hand.
Then all at once a look of attention and surprise crossed his face, and
he raised his head. Some one had unmistakably paused outside the door
which Greening had left ajar.
There was a moment of apparent doubt, then a stir of skirts, a quick,
uncertain knock, and the intruder entered.
For a couple of seconds she stood in the doorway; then, as Loder made
no effort to speak, she moved into the room. She had apparently but just
returned from some entertainment, for, though she had drawn off her long
gloves, she was still wearing an evening cloak of lace and fur.
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