In the tense quietude of the darkness the place looked vast and
inspiring. The shadowy Terrace, the silent river, the rows of lighted
windows, each was significant. Slowly and comprehensively his glance
passed from one to the other. He was no sentimentalist and no dreamer;
his act was simply the act of a man whose interests, robbed of their
natural outlet, turn instinctively towards the forms and symbols of the
work that is denied them. His scrutiny was steady--even cold. He was
raised to no exaltation by the vastness of the building, nor was
he chilled by any dwarfing of himself. He looked at it long and
thoughtfully; then, again moving slowly, he turned and retraced his
steps.
His mind was full as he walked back, still oblivious of the stone
parapet of the Embankment, the bare trees, and the flaring lights of the
advertisements across the water. Turning to the left, he regained Fleet
Street and made for his own habitation with the quiet accuracy that some
men exhibit in moments of absorption.
He crossed Clifford's Inn with the same slow, almost listless step;
then, as his own doorway came into view, he stopped. Some one was
standing in its recess.
For a moment he wondered if his fancy were playing him a trick; then his
reason sprang to certainty with so fierce a leap that for an instant his
mind recoiled. For we more often stand aghast at the strength of our own
feelings than before the enormity of our neighbor's actions.
“Is that you, Chilcote?” he said, below his breath.
At the sound of his voice the other wheeled round. “Hallo!” he said. “I
thought you were the ghost of some old inhabitant. I suppose I am very
unexpected?”
Loder took the hand that he extended and pressed the fingers
unconsciously. The sight of this man was like the finding of an oasis at
the point where the desert is sandiest, deadliest, most unbearable.
“Yes, you are--unexpected,” he answered.
Chilcote looked at him, then looked out into the court. “I'm done up,”
he said. “I'm right at the end of the tether.” He laughed as he said it,
but in the dim light of the hall Loder thought his face looked ill
and harassed despite the flush that the excitement of the meeting had
brought to it. Taking his arm, he drew him towards the stairs.
“So the rope has run out, eh?” he said, in imitation of the other's
tone. But under the quiet of his manner his own nerves were throbbing
with the peculiar alertness of anticipation; a sudden sense of mastery
over life, that lifted him above surroundings and above persons--a sense
of stature, mental and physical, from which he surveyed the world. He
felt as if fate, in the moment of utter darkness, had given him a sign.
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