The Memoirs of a Failure: with an Account of the Man and His ManuscriptKittredge, Daniel Wright
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The Memoirs of a Failure: with an Account of the Man and His Manuscript
Kittredge, Daniel Wright
Failure (Psychology) -- Fiction; Harvard University -- Fiction; University of Virginia -- Fiction
Usually he ate his meals in silence, surrounded by the students and
instructors who throng Memorial Hall. One could see that he hated the
puerile discussion and long-winded disputations of Sophomores and
Juniors. He had heard them before. Some of the fellows thought him
hopelessly conceited, queer, and that he deemed himself “above the
common flight of vulgar souls.” Others were convinced that the man
was morbidly sensitive, diffident, shy, afraid of the light. A few
of us knew him to be a sort of semi-sane genius, prematurely old; a
disappointed being who wreaked vengeance upon himself by trying to keep
others from knowing the cause of his troubles, if troubles there were.
In fine, none of us knew anything definitely or specifically about him.
Of course this last statement is not strictly accurate as regards my
own slight intimacy with him at the University of Virginia, taken in
connection with the hearsay tattle about him there. I went over in my
mind the gossip of his love affair, the particulars of which I had not
the malignant disposition to relate to other students. Yet I could
not refrain from asking, were these two periods in his life forever
separated by a sort of moral illness which he could not cure? Else
what had happened so suddenly to put an end to the levities of his
early life? But it is not my purpose to tell the story of the lover in
Dunlevy.
Let it not be supposed that because Dunlevy came from the South in
those days that he was in needy circumstances. Such was far from
the case. His rooms were in what was then the most expensive of
dormitories. This was one of the strange things about him, like his
dining at such a crowded place as Memorial Hall. One would have
supposed that he would have sought a secluded peaceful spot. He
preferred, as it were, to live in the midst of social life, and yet
take no part in it. In like manner, he had very little intercourse with
the Boston world, and, so far as I know, he made but few excursions
into that City of Inconsistencies. The fashionable cafés and hotel
lobbies were not rendezvous for Dunlevy. Nor those pseudo-Bohemian
joints, where students imagined they “were seeing life” and the seamy
side, these tinsel vacuums apparently had small attraction for him. And
most peculiar of all, if by chance he were discovered in one of these
places by somebody like myself who knew him, he would bow cordially,
and soon afterwards pay his check and depart. Even to laugh or sneer
at garish pretense, fashionable or unfashionable, had become a bore to
this lonely mortal.
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