I could have gone on looking at her all my life, without dreaming of
addressing her. I did not observe the silence that had succeeded to the
roar of the fountain, I do not even know whether I stood gazing at her
for a moment or for an hour. It seemed to me of a sudden—as if I had
always seen her, always known her—it was, perhaps, because I was living
a century in a moment’s space.
She was the first to speak. I heard but could not understand all at
once, for the silvery tones of her voice, like her supernatural beauty,
served to complete the illusion.
I listened as if to music, without seeking to attach any particular
sense to her words.
At last I made an effort to shake off this stupor and heard her ask if I
could see her. I know not what I answered, for she added:
“Under what guise dost thou behold me?”
It was only then that I remarked she addressed me as “thou.” I felt
myself drawn to reply in the same fashion, for if she spoke to me _en
reine_, I addressed her as a divinity.
“I see thee,” I replied, “as a being to whom naught upon this earth can
compare.”
It seemed to me that she blushed, for my eyes were becoming accustomed
to the sea-green light which inundated her figure. I beheld her, white
as a lily, with the fresh tint of youth upon her cheek, a melancholy
smile added to her charms.
“What do you see extraordinary in me?” said she.
“Beauty,” I replied, briefly. I was too much moved to add more.
“My beauty,” answered she, “is an effect of the imagination; for it does
not exist in a form that thou canst appreciate. All that is here of me
is my mind. Address me then as a soul and not as a woman. About what did
you wish me to advise you?”
“I no longer remember.”
“And the cause of this forgetfulness?”
“Is thy presence.”
“Try to remember.”
“No, I do not wish to.”
“Then, adieu!”
“No, no,” I exclaimed, approaching her, as if to retain her, but I
stopped short—terrified, for the light suddenly paled and the apparition
seemed fading away.
“In the name of heaven, remain!” I went on, with anguish. “I am
submissive, my love for you is chaste.”
“What love?” she asked, reassuming her brilliancy.
“What love? I know not. Did I speak of love? Oh, yes, I remember now.
Yesterday I loved a woman and I wished to please her, to work her will
at the risk of betraying my duty. If you are a pure essence, as I
believe, you know everything. Must I then explain?”
“No, I know the facts that concern the posterity of the family whose
name I bear.” “But I am no divinity, I cannot read souls, I did not know
that thou lovedst.”
“I love no one. At this moment I love nothing upon earth, and I would
like to die if in another state of existence I could follow you.”
“Thou talkest wildly. To be happy after death, it is necessary to have
led a pure life. Thou hast a difficult duty to fulfill, and it is for
this that thou hast summoned me. Perform thy duty then or thou wilt
never see me more.”
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