Laurence went out of the death chamber into the hall, where the gray
light of the cold spring morning came dimly from the street through the
transom. A milk cart stopped outside. He could hear the clatter of tins,
as it came to a halt, and the hurrying feet of the driver running down
the area steps and up again. Bottles were jostled together with a dull
clink. The man outside whistled. The horse's shoes chimed on the cold
hard street, and the milk wagon rumbled away, the noises blurring in
distance.
There were more footsteps, dull, methodic. One man called to another.
There was a musical shiver of breaking glass, curses uttered in a hoarse
male voice, and the flat thud of running feet.
Laurence opened the front door and looked into the street. Above the
dull housetops were stone blue clouds. The arc light burning over the
pavement opposite was like a ball of pale unraveling silk. On the
windows of the houses with their lowered blinds, the sunless day was
reflected in livid brightness.
He could not bear the light and he turned back into the house into the
darkened parlor, where the leaves of plants on the stand in the corner
seemed to burn with a bluish fire. He could see the begonia leaves like
pink hairy flesh, and the gray fur of fern fronds.
The long pier glass in darkness was like black silver. It was as though
he had never seen himself move formlessly forward on its surface. He was
cold. He could not stay there.
Softly and quickly, he went out into the hall and mounted the stairs
again. He put his hand on the knob of the bedroom door and fancied that
it swung inward of itself.
Dr. Beach had gone, but the nurse was still in the room. She had her
back turned to the door and was folding up some clothes. The gas flame
had been extinguished. The window curtains were open. Objects in the
room were plainly visible, throwing no anchorage of shadow about them.
Laurence went toward the bed. He set his feet down carefully as if he
were afraid of being heard.
When he reached Her, he saw She had not moved. She would never move. A
sob of agony and relief shook him from head to foot.
The nurse coughed discreetly. Scarcely aware of it, he heard her
starched dress rustle and her shoes creak as she tiptoed out.
He knelt down by the bed. The last hour of Winnie's suffering was yet
real and terrible to him.
He pulled the sheet back from Her face. She had not moved. She was dead.
Stillness revolved about him in eternal motion.
Winnie lay in the center of quickness. She was dead. He wanted to rush
out of the circle filled with Her warmth.
The stillness revolved again.
She held Her pain shut in Her. He would never know it again.
He hated to leave the room where the silence was quick. Out of the
silence his pain was waiting to grasp him.
About Winnie the house revolved in wider and wider circles at the edge
of which Her quickness died away.
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