England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
He groped his way back into the hall and to the alcove where he had laid
his coat and hat. The yellow light blurred his eyes with a film of
half-blindness; phantasies of doubt and dread enveloped him; he felt,
with that almost barometric instinct that he possessed, that things
momentous and incalculable were looming in the future. This Millstead
that had seemed to him so bright and lovely was now heavy with dark
mysterious menace; as he walked back across the hall through the long
avenues of disturbed chairs it occurred to him suddenly that perhaps
this foreboding that was hovering about him was not mental at all, but
physical; that he had overworked himself and was going to be ill.
Perhaps, even, he was ill already. He had a curious desire that someone
should confirm him in this supposition; when Clare, meeting him at the
doorway, said: "You're looking thoroughly tired out Mr. Speed," he
smiled and answered, with a touch of thankfulness: "I'm feeling,
perhaps, a little that way."
"Then," said Clare, immediately, "please don't trouble to see me home. I
can quite easily find my own way, I assure you. You go back to Lavery's
and get straight off to bed."
The thought, thus presented to him, of foregoing this walk into the town
with her, sent a sharp flush into his cheeks and pulled down the
hovering gloom almost on to his eyes; he knew then, more acutely than he
had ever guessed before, that he was desiring Clare's company in a way
that was a good deal more than casual. The realisation surprised him
just a little at first, and then surprised him a great deal because at
first it had surprised him only a little.
"I'd rather come with you if you don't mind," he said. "The walk will do
me good."
"What, _this_ weather!" she exclaimed softly, and then laughed a sharp,
instant laugh.
That laugh galvanised him into determination. "I'm coming anyway," he
said quietly, and took her arm and led her away into the fog.
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