The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur SymonsDowson, Ernest Christopher
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The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur Symons
Dowson, Ernest Christopher
Authors, English; English poetry
He threw out his hands, with a vague expansive gesture.
'Dear child!' he said to the flames, in French; 'good little one! I do
not forget thee.' And he began to tell me.
'It was when I was at Vienna, ah! a long while ago. I was not rich,
but neither was I very poor; I still had my little patrimony, and I
lived in the ---- Strasse, very economically; it is a quarter which
many artists frequent. I husbanded my resources, that I might be able
to work away at my art without the tedium of making it a means of
livelihood. I refused many offers to play in public, that I might have
more leisure. I should not do that now; but then, I was very
confident; I had great faith in me. And I worked very hard at my
symphony, and I was full of desire to write an opera. It was a tall
dark house, where I lived; there were many other lodgers, but I knew
scarcely any of them. I went about with my head full of music and I
had my violin; I had no time to seek acquaintance. Only my neighbour,
at the other side of my passage, I knew slightly and bowed to him when
we met on the stairs. He was a dark, lean man, of a very distinguished
air; he must have lived very hard, he had death in his face. He was
not an artist, like the rest of us: I suspect he was a great
profligate, and a gambler; but he had the manners of a gentleman. And
when I came to talk to him, he displayed the greatest knowledge of
music that I have ever known. And it was the same with all; he talked
divinely, of everything in the world, but very wildly and bitterly. He
seemed to have been everywhere, and done everything; and at last to be
tired of it all; and of himself the most. From the people of the house
I heard that he was a Pole; noble, and very poor; and, what surprised
me, that he had a daughter with him, a little girl. I used to pity
this child, who must have lived quite alone. For the Count was always
out, and the child never appeared with him; and, for the rest, with
his black spleen and tempers, he must have been but sorry company for
a little girl. I wished much to see her, for you see, Monsieur! I am
fond of children, almost as much as of music; and one day it came
about. I was at home with my violin; I had been playing all the
evening some songs I had made; and once or twice I had seemed to be
interrupted by little, tedious sounds. At last I stopped, and opened
the door; and there, crouching down, I found the most beautiful little
creature I had ever seen in my life. It was the child of my neighbour.
Yes, Monsieur! you divine, you divine! That was the Leonora!'
'And she is not your compatriot,' I asked.
'A Hungarian? ah, no! yet every piece of her pure Slav. But I weary
you, Monsieur; I make a long story.'
I protested my interest; and after a little side glance of dubious
scrutiny, he continued in a constrained monotone, as one who told over
to himself some rosary of sad enchanting memories.
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