The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur SymonsDowson, Ernest Christopher
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The Poems and Prose of Ernest Dowson, With a Memoir by Arthur Symons
Dowson, Ernest Christopher
Authors, English; English poetry
'You are eccentric, Monsieur! but your nation has a privilege of
eccentricity. At least, you amuse me; and I have wearied myself enough
this long evening. Show me your violin; I am something of a
_virtuosa_.'
I took the instrument from its case, handed it to her in silence,
watching her gravely. She received it with the dexterous hands of a
musician, looked at the splendid stains on the back, then bent over
towards the light in a curious scrutiny of the little, faded signature
of its maker, the _fecit_ of an obscure Bavarian of the seventeenth
century; and it was a long time before she raised her eyes.
When she spoke, her rich voice had a note of imperious entreaty in it.
'Your violin interests me, Monsieur! Oh, I know that wood! It came to
you--?'
'A legacy from an esteemed friend.'
She shot back. 'His name?' with the flash which I waited for.
'Maurice Cristich, Madame!'
We were deserted in our corner. The company had strayed in, one by
one, to the large _salon_ with the great piano, where a young Russian
musician, a pupil of Chopin, sat down to play, with no conventional
essay of preliminary chords, an expected morsel. The strains of it
wailed in just then, through the heavy, screening curtains; a mad
_valse_ of his own, that no human feet could dance to, a pitiful,
passionate thing that thrilled the nerves painfully, ringing the
changes between voluptuous sorrow and the merriment of devils, and
burdened always with the weariness of 'all the Russias,' the proper
_Welt-schmerz_ of a young, disconsolate people. It seemed to charge
the air, like electricity, with passionate undertones; it gave
intimate facilities, and a tense personal note to our interview.
'A legacy! so he is gone.' She swayed to me with a wail in her voice,
in a sort of childish abandonment: 'and _you_ tell me! Ah!' she drew
back, chilling suddenly with a touch of visible suspicion. 'You hurt
me, Monsieur! Is it a stroke at random? You spoke of a gift; you say
you knew, esteemed him. You were with him? Perhaps, a message ...?'
'He died alone, Madame! I have no message. If there were none, it
might be, perhaps, that he believed you had not cared for it. If that
were wrong, I could tell you that you were not forgotten. Oh! he loved
you! I had his word for it, and the story. The violin is yours--do not
mistake me; it is not for your sake but his. He died alone; value it,
as I should, Madame!'
They were insolent words, perhaps cruel, provoked from me by the mixed
nature of my attraction to her; the need of turning a reasonable and
cool front to that pathetic beauty, that artful music, which whipped
jaded nerves to mutiny. The arrow in them struck so true, that I was
shocked at my work. It transfixed the child in her, latent in most
women, which moaned at my feet; so that for sheer shame as though it
were actually a child I had hurt, I could have fallen and kissed her
hands.
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