You have never seen him, I think. He is smaller than I, slight of
build and tender-faced. How out of place he looked among the ship's
sturdy men of science, with their ages of discipline and austerity
written indelibly into their features. They did not want him. They told
the commissioner that they did not want him.
"Let him stay at home," they said, "and sing his songs to those who
wish to listen."
But the commissioner himself, and, I suspect, the commissioner's wife,
was as fond as any of Gven and his songs, so he said Gven was to come
if he liked.
Poor Gven tried hard enough to make us like him. He offered us the only
gift he had, that of his songs, but no one cared to hear them except
me, and I was ashamed to say so. In the end he was reduced to sitting
for hours, looking out into the night through which the ship bore us,
saying nothing to anyone, for fear of our scorn. He would have liked
us to tell him about the Earth people, for his studies at the Palace
fitted him sadly for a scientific expedition.
Of the Earth people, however, we hesitated to speak freely, even among
ourselves, for all of us feel strongly about them, in one way or
another. Our exchanges on the matter have always been burdened with
emotion; and we find we cannot share easily our thoughts about Earth
people, unless we banter lightly and say little of what we really feel.
When our long-ship drew near the third Earth, we were transferred into
the round-ship in which we were to carry on our observations. I could
see Gven was limp with excitement, but as always, I would not exchange
with him for fear of the others, not even to drain off that excess of
feeling which was to prove so dangerous to him.
Perhaps he thought it would be different, once we had established
ourselves in our designated area of observation. Then we might warm
toward him, giving him the comforts of our experience. If such were his
expectations, he was disappointed. Whatever he gathered from us was
purely accidental, information that we exchanged among ourselves as we
worked. Only in this way did he learn of those few bonds we had forged
with the Earth people.
It is our custom, as you know, for each man to select one of the Earth
people as his subject. This is not part of our work, it is only a
device to drive away the tedium that descends upon men far from home
and bound to exacting work in a confined place. We begin to feel quite
passionately concerned with our subjects, and occasionally find it
difficult to return to our primary concerns.
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