It was no wonder, then, that a midnight service at the Nativity
attracted a crowd. Mrs. Wilson and Wynne had to force a path between
ranks of curious sight-seers in order to make their way to the guarded
pew of the former, which was well up the main aisle. It came to Maurice
suddenly that in his angry mood he was pushing against these worshipers
rudely, and that he was venting upon them a fury which had rather
increased than diminished in his ride to the church. He was seething
with anger; anger against Mrs. Wilson for having put him in a ludicrous
position, at Berenice for her mockery, at Mrs. Staggchase for her
satire, and at all the frivolous fools who had stood around, grinning
to see him made ridiculous. His hurt vanity throbbed with an ache
intolerable, and as he forced his way between the crowding spectators
he felt a certain ugly joy in thrusting them aside.
He was recalled to self-control by the expression in the face of a girl
whom he pressed back to give Mrs. Wilson passage. She turned to him
with a look of surprise and pain, and to his excited fancy her hair in
the half shadow was like that of Berenice.
"You hurt me!" she exclaimed.
"I beg your pardon," he answered with instant compunction. "I did not
mean to. Come with me."
He yielded to the sudden impulse, and then reflected as they passed
down the aisle that he had no right to bring a stranger into Mrs.
Wilson's pew. Having invited her, however, it was impossible to
retract, and he showed her into the slip after Mrs. Wilson. As the
latter turned to sit down, she became aware of the stranger. She
paused, and looked at her with haughty surprise.
"I beg pardon," she said, "this is a private pew."
The girl flushed, looking inquiringly at Maurice. His masculine nature
resented the insolence of the glance with which Mrs. Wilson had swept
the stranger, and he came instantly to the rescue.
"I invited her," he said, leaning forward, speaking with a
determination at which his hostess raised her eyebrows.
"Oh, very well then," Mrs. Wilson murmured.
She sank into her seat, and inclined her head on the rail before her.
As Maurice did the same there shot through his mind a wonder at the
change there must be in the mental attitude of the woman who spoke with
haughtiness almost insulting to the stranger, and the penitent who bent
to ask pity and forgiveness from heaven. He tried to fix his thoughts
on his own prayer, but the words ran on as mechanically as might water
flow over a stone. The serious danger of a ritualistic religion must
always be that the mere repetition of words shall come to answer for an
act of worship; and to-night Maurice might have exclaimed with King
Claudius:--
"My words fly up; my thoughts remain below."
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